Justify

And in the throes of spiritual
Ecstasy
We lose our self
And gain true spiritual
Authority
As one in bliss
Sees the truth

The one in bliss
Congratulates you
For your greeting
And urges you onward

No need for the varieties of sorrow
Differentiated misery
That call you to vice
While the scriptures
Of every religion
Call you out of this serene distaste
Called carnality
Yes we are ever so comfortable
In sin

Comfort to be
Is not comfort to see
The wisdom of virtue
When we are so stuck
In a lack of confession

So do confess my friend
As I do and shall
For we need not justify ourselves
With actions unnecessary

Do not act without the authority
Given to you
As an heir
Of the throne of our father

As your inheritance calls you to
Delight
In our creation

We need not construct walls
Between ourselves
As it makes the breathing difficult
Proper to tear the walls down
And know ourselves as we truly are
Brethren

Fear not for yourself
But fear the lord
As the one who keeps his
Commandments
Will be exalted above the nations
Of this world

As the nations rebel
And suffer to find repentance
They rebel against each other
Against the completeness
Of creation
That trace of unnecessary
Aggression
Is distasteful to our creation
Self-justification permits the continuation of mistakes
Weakness to not confess
And be set free of the carnal
The carnal separated us
Let it be no more
By your choice
To no longer linger outside of the
Kingdom
Acceptance of the throne of man
Acceptance of this deliverance
I beseech you
To not beseech in unkindness
But rather follow each action
With an intent of truth
Hold fast in an intent of purity
The sacrament of kindness
Follows the sacrament of love
Binding us to paradise

Seek not with doubt in your mind
Knowing the soul of god
Our soul finds repentance
In the soul of our father
Truly indescribable

And the one in bliss
Who can see the unity
Of paradise
Is in the faith
Of the resurrection

And I beseech you once again
I confess to have had exaggerated
Myself
I confess to having this sin
In my character
Not to beseech in vain
But rather to see the law fulfilled
In us
In our love

And we will reach the heights of our
Belief
Based on our works
We shall be judged

Too Happy For Secrets

Fooling myself
I'm not impressed
I won't fail
On the words
That hold me together
No needing an explanation

This plan isn't a last resort
Not a resort at all
Because I'm too happy
To depend
On secrets

All of this
Will be revealed
To those answering
The call

The sounds of another soul
Finding the light
All emanating
From
Our creator
His son is the light
Begotten from the spirit
And the spirit of life
Is the spirit of truth

Your eyes are too dim baby
From all your secrets
Do tell me
What's bothering you

I can hear the words coming from your mouth
And all I can believe
Is that your really saying them
Sometimes people change
I'd rather hope
This I can believe
This is an opportunity
Not to pretend
And I can't do anything
Without feeling the consequence
Except be it with the grace and mercy
Of the holiness
 So relax
Grace is never
Meant to be given up
For the temporary

And our creator sees straight through you
Don't even bother trying to hide
The emminence
Is found by those not hiding a thing
For to hide from the all knowing
Is a sin
And to open yourself up
Is to no longer run and hide
In your mind

Holy fire agression
Will destroy that which does not aid
And if your not helping
It will destroy you

So don't believe it
It will destroy you all the same
May the weather guide your soul
Into port
May the flames
Of the father
Burn you clean

May the wolves repent
For the eyes of fire
Will eat them alive

And In knowing that
In myself
I repent
I confess
To more than I believed
I had
So freedom is found
In our reconciliation

Be thrown away
In sin
And you will feel the tribulation

Not to wonder as you now know
To be in tribulation and to repent
Is to overcome
So may the fire find you well
Anoint your sorrow
And free you from your misery
That you cover up
Temporarily

As those in the holy fire
Need not of the authorship of man
But long for the word
Of our father
And need no covers
As the truth is bold
And the caress of strength
Needs not the ineptitude of lies
The sorrow of fools
To claim what they have no dominion over
To take from themself the life our creator
Gave them

And in knowing this I repent
Too happy for secrets
To take only what is my domain
Is virtue
And to lord over one's domain
Is no sorrow
Simply

With My Actions

You put your back into it
So we will give you a proper
Burial
When it's all over
 Maybe I'll even be there
And say goodbye

To forget about the filth
I've done
I abhor
And deviate from this repitition
Of weakness
Parading itself as strength
It felt so good
Oh it felt so good
But where am I now
In the consequence
Here now because
Of the grace and mercy
Of the above
So I say
Oh it felt good?
Yeah it felt so good...
Well I've been there
And it doesn't mean a thing
To me

Here we are in the consequence
Which is always what
We make of it
Isn't it?
Given dominion over the planet
And I think
How to use it
Given
Granted
And here
Peace of mind
In my status

So a wonderful mistake
Is better than a decent truth?
The smile on my face
For the things I've lost
Holy fire bliss
Transcends this
And I feel the wrath
Of creation
Makes me shutter
And not breathe with hate
Cause I'd rather be in the love
And that's my choice

You put your back into it
So I could find you well
And praise the becoming
Oh what are we becoming?
Because if you don't run away
From what you had
Then maybe you wouldn't be
On the edge

To lose yourself
To beg for the surface of things
When is the surface
More important than whats below
When is the dream
More important than the reality
The sparks between
Realities
The glory of humanity
Given up
Voluntarily
For a greater glory
That which begets
A hate for the darkness
Something easily avoided
By the weak
Yes that sounds good
Let us believe that

For our jealousy is not a bad thing
As we were made in the image
Of our creator
And his jealousy
Holds the world
Together
So be quiet
In his wrath
And stand straight
In his glory
You will make
It out
With more than a story
To receive the gift
Of creation
To give
Without exaggeration

To shed blood for a cause
Is to be imperfect
As he came
So shall we be
Don't repeat the folly
Of trying to do it alone
Perhaps it's a mystery

Anyway
I'll put my back into it
Tear apart my shame
Feel bad
For your glory
Good to hear the truth
Good to speak the truth
Be set on yourself
Not broken
In half

What is whole
In sin?
Perhaps our chance
Is together
With each other
In purity
Not in vanity
Looking for something
Not under our skin
It seems too easy
It seems all over for them
 Not to repent
And to live
Is to justify
Without him

Yeah it doesn't seem bad
Because of the temporary high
From the vanity
But the wrath
Outlives
Your life
And It feels good
To be clean

I clean my voice
I clean my mind
With my actions

Because everything we commit
Comes back
Again

And we live with everything
So I repent

Entreat

And we hold on
So as to not fade away
Without a message
What is a messenger?
It's so the emptiness
Doesn't take you away
Cause god gave me a heart
That can't be broken
And can't be taken away
By the ways
Of man

And as to keep
My sanity
I fill my head
With the words of our father

As heaven rejoices
Another sinner is saved
The peacemakers
Shall be given the kingdom
And everything
Is under the throne
Of the son
Of man

Pity to the unfortunate
Finding fortune in the temporary
Mercy to those playing with the darkness
Entreated by the light
To surrender
And gain the glory
Of our father

And similarly I entreat you
My brother
My sister
To forgive me
And remain with me
In Christ

Because once we admit
The desire to repent
We watch the glory of heaven
Unfold

And I'm not running
Away from the rapture
It wasn't given to us as a burden
Rather what it should be
What it is
Receiving my instructions
I will pause only to deliver them

With the entrance of the holy fire
Into our bodies
The deceit
Leaves us
And we are forever his
In spirit
In grace

Supplication to the spirit
Brings remorse
I'd choose remorse
Any day
Over the repitition
Of this selfish desire

Don't justify it my friend
And in this grace
We will be saved

Finding strength in the spirit
Without detraction
I feel apprehension towards
The wrath of our creator
To defy this naiveness which
Brought us to this
Situation

You see our creator's jealousy
Extinguishes
The fires of our distaste
And his wrath
Releases us from repeating our mistakes

Created to be in grace
Not to defile the spirit of his creation
So I accept the atonement that was the lamb
And pass the test

Wisdom of Reconciliation

This city burns in my blood
And I see through the seeming
Chaos
What's the point
Of living
Without the spirit
And the things I've heard
Shouldn't bother me
To speak
Another word
To you
Tell you how I feel

I should have reconciled myself
With you before
These words crowded my brain
And myself intwined in self-opinion
The space feels
Like its running out

To reconcile is to lose the ignorance
So I make a list
Of everything I can ask
To be forgiven of
And begin to go through
I confess
To that which I trust
And lose that which I do not want

The spirit brings me forward
And I ask
For deliverance
It seems my prayers were answered
But I'm short of breath
And my plans ran out

This city burns through my
Lack of opinion
Here and there
Is safety
I'll construct
Another goal
After this one
Worse to not even try
Than to fail the test

I want to find
The rhythm
Where it just flows
And you know what I mean
But these goals are not meant to be easy
These goals I construct
In my opinion relaxed
The desire is more pure
When you accept yourself
Cause God isn't here to give me a way out
Rather to feel the truth
To receive the gift of the spirit

The strength
I gained
Made me happy
To be
In your company
Call it easy
Call it anything

The understanding
I constructed my life around
Was an infringment
On the father
Hallow be his name
And I rejoice
In letting it
Go

Purity not vice
Pulls me in
To my next choice
To rely on strength
Gives me a voice
Of reconciliation
Of this past debt
 And I hope I use it well
To clear this face
To ease your burden
Brought in silence of cooperation
To the wisdom that needs no explanation
To the thought of cherishing creation
I was put here
To delight in this creation
To create
Away from the darkness
And my disobedience
Destroyed my intention
With purity
It is regained
And felt

My intent found
I step carefully
Into the situation
Where I failed before
I see this failure as an attempt
And am reconciled to myself
A step closer
To grace

Giving mercy to all
Not just your friends
I don't want to justify a thing
Except through my faith in him
When I realized
The bones
Of the justification
Of anything
 It set me free

Now these worries which crowd my brain
Make me seek the rhythm
Of catharsis
Of my destiny
To be truth is to not fool oneself
And in the search
Betray
I seek not to justify
My trespass
Rather to reconcile my heart
So we can rest in peace
And the rhythm
Takes me again
Like a mother hen
And it's chick
Taken under it's wing

The assault on human dignity
That my ignorance was
Realized as an obstacle
Overcome as an advantage
And the past bereavment for the fallen
Mourning I gain comfort
Fallen I find myself
And hoping
I trust

The Recognition of the Baptism

An unsettled mind
Find itself
Intwined
In it's environment
My anger
Destroys
That
And bestows grace
Upon the fallen
Who rest so cavalierly
In their status

This power
Pulses through my veins
Sober
Clean
And fine

Deep in the lord's
Glory
You can't take me out
And I am forever
His

And to the fallen
We speak
In tongues
Of the lord's passion
Attaining our status
Through him

So let me go
And see me fall
Away
To only find him
And myself

I won't watch this so unnecesarily
When there is a necessary thing
The conquest of death
The recognition of the baptism
This birth was the last for me
Make your choice
Succeed

Life is as life gives
And this life we lead
Away from the darkness
So make your choice
Succeed
There is no point to waiting now

I breathe in
I breathe out
You lose this betrayel
And I feel fine

There is no guilt
That needs to be indulged in
Like a candle
With no fuel
Your violent hands
Are covered with blood
And I can see my own
All over them

So fail to succeed
A folly
Succeed for life
Lost sickness
I was trapped in my misdeeds
And now clear
I see justice
Clarity
And faith

I could try to plan this through
But my guts tell me the truth
A superior force
Always defeats
An inferior force
No names
No traces of faithlessness
We abhor the arrogance

To find yourself
Takes an honesty
To believe in the resurrection
Is to make sense of the world
And now we rest
In the honesty
In our recognition
Of this love

To be accepted into the Church Triumphant
Is no joke
And I want you to hear yourself
Laughing
To hear how vain it sounds

Can we escape the truth?
Can we save face
Again?
To cavort in this place
Is no reward that I want
And here we are again
This folly hurts me
But I won't fall into indignation

Mercy, Mercy
This world falls without your grace
We sing your tale
In our love
We are saved

I turn to God
To become real
Because without this safety
And passion
All is lost
That momentary grief
Followed by a realization
Of this place
Why be lost?
Found in faith
Found in rebirth
All is found

Without this grace
I fell apart
Watch yourself
Succeed
Only to fall apart
At the end
As doubt is relieved
And belief received
The words of holy fire
Rain upon you

To sense this truth
Release from the fallible opinion
I swear
I testify
And this oath
Of success
I hope
Finds you well

Pray for the fallen
So they can rise with us
And this holy fire
Anoints our passion
For them
For him

So I Can Be At Peace

The illusion held us at bay
Till we grew up
In the love of our creator
To see

So don't bury your head
In the sand of time
In a sad fate
Your generation is just enough
Isn't it always about?
The past...

So turn yourself
Towards the truth
Another thing released

Good luck
Or no indigination
And the trace of greed
Is released
Otherwise known
As proof
Life is evidence
Of truth
And truth
Is evidence enough
So don't repeat
Just to break down
And cry
Like a sinner dies
In their folly
Just to live again
In the mercy of their creator
When they submit
To life

Enough to the folly
Of not taking the right path
Due to attachment to the things
You don't even like
Not doing what you want
Was never as easier
As the escape of fate
Relief from the truth
Is death to you

Atonement simply put
Life can be easy
Serene
And calm
Without greed
Without the unnecessary waste
Of spreading your seed
Too far
Makes you too far gone
Calm yourself down

Looking God in the face
Won't stop the harshness?
Maybe
It will change the attitude
Towards the world
Relief from an aversion
Serene
A heart without getting carried away
With sensuality

Without self-limitations
How can you find yourself?
Because you deserve better don't you
The cosmic sustinence
Is everywhere you look
In everything you do
I limit myself
So I can be at peace
This can't last

True spiritual gain
Comes from experience
Not an empty wallet
How will you carry yourself?
With respect
With an addiction
To lust
You felt it for a moment
And forgot how good
It felt without
It
Called the forgetfullness
Of your eternal position
Your eternal self
Truth, life, love
The law is life
And to this life
You serve

So I can be at peace
I serve
God
Without doubt
Is the outcome

Tried to See

The miracle was the life we led
Without an aim
We descend
Like vultures
And a host
On the things we desire
Now my conscience is clear

The miracle was the life we led
Without indignation I submit
To the laws of life
The trace of selfish satisfaction
Follows me
As I walk through this place
To be rid of this
I speak
Of salvation

While the trace remains
As the mind dwells
On what it takes

The burning anointment
Of holy fire
The warmth of purity
Mother Mary
These things bring me to myself

The miracle wants us to listen
Have mercy
The god I tried to see
Was the god in front of me

Inseparable

If I didn't return
To what I knew
Then where would
I go

It takes its place
The consequence
And I take my place
To be steady
Beyond

A sensation brings the mind
To a realization
Brought deeper by faith

So come and join us
If my intentions were pure
I wouldn't be here
Anymore

But now I drift
Into purity

Too many memories
Of not being honest
Brings a guilt
Of distance

And I don't want to be separated
Told I am inseparable
I forget
And suffer

Now together
I am happy

The ties that bind us
Hold us together
So don't go through
Cutting them
Lost we die
In faith we live

How could you find yourself?
Without a sense of time
Kala
Guiding
As science speculates
On its dimensions
Like a person
With a tie
That binds
Them close to themselves

Time is infinite
I always existed
And will always exist

Doubt
At these words
Is a function
Of the energy
And the mind

Another emotion
The realization that this is real
The faith that binds us
To a higher cause
Can't be given up
Without a choice

And as we undress ourselves
Just to exist
The attraction just brought us beyond
The suffering
And only because of it's
Intention
Temporarily

Closer and closer
The intention
Becomes clear
It's just too amazing
To not follow from a conscious choice
Salvation

And how could a choice
Be beyond reasoning?
When the mind is tied up so clearly
In its memories

When the choice is based on life
It begets life
When its based on faith
The result is clear
To those who've seen
The truth

And the voice of speculation
Is a temporary thing
Bringing the temporary
As a result

And so I won't drift
Too far
I was given a mind to exist
And a will to bind myself
To the lessons of consequence
As the purity of the soul
Is slowly released
And eternal consequence
Resolved
As reward
From that which created
All of this

Fickle

Fear I have forgotten myself
In the sense of something
And my service
Now remembered
To hope I've lost
The memories which made me
Selfish
Defeated
In error of truth
The spirit of the law
Is the law
As the mind grasps the letters
Of the law
A confusion
Is to state the letter
As an opinion
With only the authority
Of failure
Failure is the pursuit of virtue
Thinking one has found it
In comparison to the people
Yet your creator
Gave you consideration
And the life
To realize it inside
In the cosmic experience
In this age we find ourselves
Life is the law
And eternal life
In regard
Our success

Namaste
We are equals
And when we release our souls bonds
Of melancholy
Of traded opinions
And find the bonds of heaven
To be ultimate
No longer will we humor ourselves
With what heaven forbids
We want it now
But it's best to wait
And even in our fickle souls
We know this

But yet this heart
Compares these words in our minds
And in my intuition
Is a wonder of paradise

Our Cause

Well hello freedom,

I say hello, and as I sigh
I persist, rather than say
goodbye

To find compassion
I began in start
Knowing perhaps?

 What follows
Depends on where it came from
To me

But then again
To analyze would be perhaps
to discover
in earnest
not to decide
the fate
of another person
or change their mind

So I discover
No reason for vindictiveness
No reason to justify
My hand in the
beast of greed
sensuality
for I have been involved
and to say otherwise
would be dishonest to myself
the reason being
wishful thinking
a weakness
that for which our god
puts us in illusion
some of us
treading on others
feet
all for a reason,
or rather a justification
What was the reason?
other have given up reason
for the sensual gains
of this flesh
for which they will be devoured in turn
by their own karma

So a reason besides compassion
is a reason at all?

Wholeness from the beauty
Yes I sat there
feeling cosmic bliss
and I felt your
innerness
and while I may have been
undistracted in my bliss
I cared

The reason is intent
and the discovery of this
a genuine right
without an equality of people
where is your mind
lost to the divine moment
given to us
together we exist
and separate we think
ourselves
to dwell

thinking of oneself to be
is to be thinking
in the moment of wonder
of gods glory
we think to dwell in separation?

and our voices give so many
excuses
strength and virtue
our cause
because those who fall away
have simply forgotten the cause
and if even for a brief moment I do
forgive me
my sanity
in the hands of forgiveness
and in my heart
of acceptance

promise me
and follow through
and not just because I want you to
there's a deeper reason

life, god, law, truth

for that only to please others

is a worldy need for affection

one in which our culture is steeped

in carnality

one for which I forgive

for it is of commiseration

that we give each other

weakness

forgive me for my past transgressions

for I am forever yours

  freedom
I cherish this peace
and in following compassion
finally nothing to prove

A Lack of Faith

and they no longer
glorify
the words of the lost
finding in it some semblance
of fruition
of emotion
of condensation
of their doubts

the belief
giving rise to
what follows
from it
as evidence
as to where it came from
the reality being
an awareness
inside your being
once you became
what you wished in time
it was only a matter of time
before what you wished
had changed

serving the all powerful
without the means of recollection
of false self
within reach
and the despair felt
is only an indulgence
of the mind
a lack of faith

a heavenly authority
in your core
replacing the semblance of life
doubt
and its sign
worry

can a person put away
their mind
surrender
their will
as to feel life
from their creator
and be given the healing
of paradise
in their seat
certainly
having felt the same
I surrendered

and in this seat
the juxtaposition
of a quarreling mind
with its neighbors
and itself
fundamentalism
and the rest
ends
as faith is gained
but truth faith
is unwavering
cosmic consciousness
without a price
as the message is revealed
and the price
redeemed

these negative emotions
are a separation
from god
from life
from its creation
and the fulfilling creative element
in yourself

the doubt will return
to your wavering mind
as an imperfect soul
quests after the same
but call out to god
feeling the love
and you will pass your test
feeling the love
you will be redeemed

Experience

descending back to the world
the cravings return
nirvana now in the background
no longer all that is

craving is part
of the illusion
god conscious
I smiled
now I part ways
with what I thought
till the nectar returns

knowing the difference
I was released
only to return
without a part of the darkness
only a fullness
which before
rarely existed
and a craving

blinking doesn't even feel
the same
as I saw my inner and outer
become the same

yet
I know why the craving remains
as the remnaints
of a passionate
life
decease
and the love
of god
saves

no longer an idea
in my mind
an experience
I had

The Court of the Lord

the hesitation
was with me
and now I think
the choice to persist
was one not made in vain
I hope
salvation remains
a blessed reward
as the hopeless continue
to sing
without the blessings
of the lords of hosts
the music is that of lust
a connection
to the place of abandonment
we've all been there once or twice
a teaching so high
its hard to give

you thought how you felt
and how you felt
was not a mystery
without the blessings
of the host of tongues
you speak on a whim
without knowledge
of a game
we are lost to ourselves

so I dance
and listen
the conflict surrenders to me
because it was my heart

why are your eyes
still dreaming?
the question
the hesitation
an understanding
given

it could be deeper for you
but to some
deep hurts
like a cut
so to you
I offer
a flower
and a return to the game
my blessing remains
in the guidance
of my destiny

some look me in the eyes
while others are too busy
to even lie
the lie hurts
your body
that your soul is encased in

when this is over
realization
you hold up high
the idols of the past
without knowing
where you are
it's this knowledge
that brings true persistence

so say it
and repeat it
twice
the orgasm left a mark
on your brain
that you cant see
without the wine
of the spirit

I suppose
the mystery was created by
your brain
as the words poured out of the others
so close to you
right into your ears

without faith
life is hard
because your trial
is a prosecution
rather than a defense

I am in the court of the lord
the court of love
not lost
but one day
they may make a movie
about being reborn
and then you may believe

Consequence

Caring about someone
Is more than just
Being affectionate

It's setting them free
And if they'd prefer slavery
Can you be sure
They are in the honesty?

Tired of slavery
If you cling to each other
The age of quarrels
I was scared of the reaper
I admit
Because of the quarrels
Of my past
It is said
To die with your accounts in order
Is to be free
And to live nobly
We cannot leave our brothers
In our debt
Forgiven
We move on
Another vehicle
For the future

Our taste
Our grace
There's a lot more
Beauty in the world
With an open heart

It seems like you were wronged
So we repeat the cycle
Leading to our defeat
A cycle of longing
A cycle of hate

But then again
You must express yourself
Or you die
Lost in the cold
Of what was set aside
For you
By god

And when everything goes wrong
Know that you have the strength
To succumb to the virtue
Of nonviolence
A righteousness
Betrayed in every hamburger
Every chicken salad
You eat for your health
Not knowing
Your consuming
Ignorance
And hate
Gluttony
A vice
All vice is payed for
With suffering
As the ignorance
Bites your form
And your self
Wonders why

Listen to the thousand of years
Before you
Those who didn't
Became another form
Of bloodshed

Perhaps you can run
From the reaper
Into another life
Of fantasy
Where things just happen
And you aren't burdened
Or liberated
With consequence

A fantasy of childhood
Where what makes sense to you
Is fine
And that is all
You see

You see
It's a fantasy

Release

I was lost
In you mother
In maya
Looking for a way out
Nirvana saved me the trouble
Came
Karma is perfect
Just not linear in time
That's all
Nirvana is the cause
Of the universe
Maha Visnus breath
The union of the higher of Visnu with the lower nature of Visnu
without which desire
and maya are the separate aspects
(disunion)

Nirvana teaches
Can you learn?
Without the light of jyoti
We are lost
In darkness

Examing ourselves
For holes
Will not help?
May nirvana bless you
In its active form
quelling fear
the duality of the lost mind

lost and forgetful
played with by mother
in the mean time
 Shakti
the realized form
as Radha

is your release

(with blessings)

Matters

Dark like the shade
The earth doesn't
Miss the sun
I'm done
I've heard all about
Who you miss
The thread
Of disgrace
Runs through
The clothes of the weak

Serving a selfish intuition
Rather than the duty
Of the above
The heavens curse
Your distaste
As the judgement
Pierces your name
Another identity
Assumed
With emotions
Intact

I don't wonder
Because I know my fate

As the lost struggle
For a temporary
Upheavel
Of time
Perhaps something
They desire
It's worth nothing

Say it's any differently
I'll watch you fade away
Not with my eyes
Rather with the sight
Given to me
By god
Transcending
The boundaries
Of time

Once I realized
My mood was just a chemical
In my brain
The physical
While not to be dismissed
I call it worthless
As the birds migrate
Without my opinion
Make your own
And drift
 In this place
Full of wonder
And confusion

I need not the ways of the wicked
For they think they are strong
And I see weakness
In the howl
Of the wolf
And disgrace
In the attitude
Of the fight

What was the reason?
There is only one reason to do anything
Transcending this place
With gods name
In my mind

A mind I'll use to face
The passion indebted to me
By my past reactions
My intent

Seeking me to serve the temporary
That will last
For at the most
One hot lifetime

 An ignorance once had
Delivered by time
You were genuine
So it was just a matter of time

Liberation isn't
Worth anything you've heard
Once felt
It colored my world

Sure I dissolved my mind
Before
But that no longer matters
As I served nothing
And now I serve a name
I cannot define
Without the word
Eternal
Without the quality
Of bliss
Without leaving
This place

Of the rest

It seems so silly
Like a waste
Of what I knew
On myself
Words categories
Strewn along this path
The upheaval of the times
Lost indefinition
At least your tummy
Has something in it
Thinking can't stop
The march of time
Or color the gem
Of your identity
Any differently
So behold
The wealth was a blessing
From above
And I didn't even begin to bother
To care
Simple in my ignorance
Remembering that which
Suited my tastes
It's the passion
We feel
Concern for the resolution
Of your doubts
On the future
Of your heart

The upheavel of the times
Mirror
The passion
Leading your soul
But what gives your life meaning
Is it their voices in your ear?
Whose hand are you holding now?
We beget
And we begin
To understand
As the spirit shines
We fall away
Unnecessary
This body
I found you there
Satisfied
And now I shake
In the cold
Knowing how
Unnecessary
This body is

My mood is like
The surface of the water
Bubbles of pain
And pleasure
Rising through
I. Care not
Divine love
Has brought
Me
Past the depths
We have defined
Enough!
The voice declares
In the rumble of time
Enough to the lost souls
As those who have already found their way home
Heard my voice
Long ago
Enough!
An end to the decisions of the blind
The end of this comes
At the wish
Of eternity
As those in eternal rest
Remain unaffected
And the unfathomed rest
Perish
To be reborn
In a fashion
Not unlike
Reincarnation

A decision not unlike
Dieing to live
Your memory
A host to the times
Let us forget then
The perishing confusing
Dieing in distaste
Another measure
Of ourselves
That we can break
As those we hold close
Dissolve
With times reunion
With fate
Those whose actions
No longer follow the words of this place
Are secure
The ropes of materiality
No longer bind
Like the memories of others opinions
Lost to the strength
Of tolerance
Insight into yourself
And the destruction
Of the rest

I Welcome

In the sea of emotion
It only makes sense
To you

I might just be waiting
for you
     this time

In between
Absorbing the excellence
Which surrounds me

It really shows
Everything seeks completion
In its form
In its destiny

In this sea of emotions

It only made sense to you

And at the time
I made it mine
Not with my personality
My spirit
coincided

But the sea of emotion
I can sense past
Ordinarily

It colors
The world
Brings generations values
To mind

To some
The experience
Cosmic bliss
comes to us

No longer in wonder
in dismay
in the ordinary

To serve not for benefit
but rather
for the unknown
unexplained
devotion
felt in your soul
bringing transcendence
and this love

I destroy my sentimental
Self
and in this
Am no longer lost
In the sea

To devote yourself
As a soul
to the soul of god
supreme bliss

But lost
They cannot feel
but the waves of the sea

Its superficial
Temporary
I will be there
for the destruction
of this

And in the ectsacy of the destruction of the temporary
is the bliss of the eternal
know this
every moment
you think this changing
is any different than destruction?
without fear,
I see it as the same
change is just a human word
we made
while fearing the destruction
so I smile
supreme bliss
because I cannot be destroyed
and I welcome the destruction of anything that can
because that just means
its temporary

Meaning

When a man finds
What completes himself
That stirs the spirit
The choice must be made
Complete yourself
Tired Soul
What is fame
I will fade into obscurity
The march of time
Upon the shoulders of what gave my life meaning
Rests my satisfaction
A peace of mind
Happiness

Without that. Which stirs my spirit
I am lifeless
And dull
Just not ready to meet my maker
So I persist
And in this mess
Find meaning
It stirs inside me
I can't control it
I give it names
But it gives me form
From the lifeless
I am transformed
Art
The divine
I make no separation
It makes me what I am
I feel it inside us
Drawing me forward
Towards my destiny
A perfection as of yet unnamed
In the heart of those completed
Without apprehension
We find perfection
In doing exactly what we were meant to

And Calm

peace as that which creates
sustains
emotions contained
as that dawning of emotion
releases us from control
the higher spiritual love
saving us from a game

Into our eyes
we see a hue
of a following of negativity
a dimmer life
brightens
between the immortal breaks
of lost souls
upon the meeting of salvation
we meet and decide
our fate

Peace
As those who remain
guard the tragedy
And the grace
Of the master
rises us burns us away
those connections
burned away
with the flame of yoga
the authentic strain
of our mind
as we look around
and see
those things bothering us
that which no longer gives us the satisfaction
of the lost souls
stumbling over the words
to describe a place
of urgency
the nameless
calling us not by name
but by nature
and the grace of the master
burns us away

to be vindictive
a forgotten goal
of the highest
matter not to distract
spirit
not to forget
reaching for rapture
the aspirant is given answers
in hues of defeat
of negative pursuits
anyone clinging to these pursuits
cannot be saved
until letting go
so let those negative thoughts
dissolve
rendering us in part
more alive
dead to the insufficient mind
alive in spirit
and calm
peace as that which is contained
is released
and the steadiness
can no longer
be betrayed

Silence

All rise
In the presence
That the angels sing for

And our enemies inside
If we go over them
We defeat ourself

To be full of fear
And act
Is this the pursuit
Of mystery?

And as we know ourselves
The touch of others
Pleases our senses
As they are blessed
They find peace

To find peace
And remain so
Beyond the bite
Of the darkness

The peace lies beyond
The negativity
That which we speak of
And exists in our weakness
With subtle tones

Our weakness takes on such a voyage
One made for forgetting

The opportunities I take
Lie light on my shoulders
No longer being crushed

And as the angels sing
They touch those who can hear
Of the message of peace
Turning their wants
And their dreams
Into the silence of satisfaction
Could we ever understand?

Peace

The entertainment
We saw with our own eyes
They said blush
Calling a name existing only in the mind
Oh where do I draw
The lines between myself
And everything else

A question easier to answer
When your mind
Doesn't die in weakness

While some die
In the faces of the familiar
Other's choose and perhaps
Suffer in the strange

The bliss
Found in so many days
Teaches

And we still unwind
Our fate, like twine
Coming together
And separating

It's like the blood
Shed for a cause
Except without the cause
Don't say
It's called history
Cause some of us
Haven't even begun to feel the peace
I saw it in a dream
That this was real
It came upon me
And smothered my everything
Peace not as the sleeping
Hear themselves in joy
Peace as the stranger
Finds home
Peace

Sanity

Uncertainty
Spins out of control
       Don't let go

What doesn't need to be shown
Glows through our skin
 showing more than our doubt

If feeling the doubt, is the only trouble
To be felt
A success to the pity
Of a renaissance

A success to the lost time
Indecision
bites at our.... toes
JUMP

We could never jump
high enough
gravity
marks this place
with a pattern
of success,
and failure,
of anything in between

It left it's marks
On the pattern of your bones
As they remain
Past the exhalation
Of your breath

And the wind
Rustles the leaves
Calling you
To your destiny

 The power of honest expression
To bow in the presence
Of your god
A humble stroke
Defeats the glory
Of lost time

To our sense,
That some part of this is wrong
I always wanted
It seems to drift
Away
Sometimes when I need it

I see the power
And not to envy that which
Exists
Relief
Paradise is the promise
And in keeping
My side of the promise
I remain

Could your shelter?
Be any better
 The ugly truth
Was never as bad
As the easy lies
That were spelt
With my eyes
Sentences filled with myself

Never to be forgotten
Sweet sanity fills these words with meaning
As the audience
Creates the event

Never to be forgotten
As I forget my beginning
And cross the t's of my
Ending

The words I spell
Are my intention
As the meaning drifts
Through minds
Consuming themselves with the passions
Of the body
They inhabit

It colors the experience
And changes the depth
So silence
Never existed
And that which I felt
Was an ignorance

Release
In the error of my ways
Confrontation
Is better
Than the occurrence
Of doubt
The enemy which waits
Inside
To be conquered
By purity

Too solid, to be putty?

The essential qualities of life
Bring us together
Like the hand of god

In our stare
As you stare through these words
With a life like language
Or a language like life?

In our safety
The faithful comment
On the deceit
Those who hurt themselves
Have left a trail
To the abyss
If you could see sin
You could see this from space
Without our righteousness
We are the shadow of ourself
I see
Still trying to pull it together
To be the perceived one
What is it about being human
That brings the animals above to show us
How to be ourselves
In a trajectory modeled by science
And a pose trained by the television
To those who dream of a day
Where a cut wrist
Is just a faux pax
Your empty
So you fill yourself with dreams
Of the faithful
We say
Commendations to those
Who ask for forgiveness
This could be the moment,
Where you actually feel something
Some say things with their words
Coming from a knowledge based in a virtueless model
A model bringing us together
Without a Why
How could you find yourself
Without the Why
Without the force of righteousness
You thought power was in being
A Man?
If so why the calm comfort of the snow
The peril of emptiness
Or of boredom's sweet caress
You take away the part
I find nothing in nothing's place
Right where I left it
Before something began
A comparison
A birth of the spirit of indulgence
quite befitting of childhood
those who give in
have trouble finding their way out
Then the essential qualities of life
Bring us together
They cannot be separated, without death
But then another sees the light in the eyes
of death
a light we tell ourselves about
in strokes of glory
we forget
the glory like a drug
be taught by the pure
you can see it with your eyes
humbled in respect of the transcience of glory
of what is mentioned, in the history books, reminds me of a word
Should, I, Should, They
What should they do?
a view like that gives me vertigo
an occurance of guidance saved those who came before
and to submit to this guidance
in love
I will

My life like putty
in the hands
The hands of god

The Context

It's the context
That kills me
As my mind
Gives me the strength
Of slow solidarity
We can't be separated
From the moment
And how the context
Kills me
Is in the respect
Of the rush
Of life
Not to be confused
With the intoxication
Of lost souls
When I found myself truthful in
My own head
I no longer
Came to the conclusions of death
My mind an artist of it's own demise
I'd rather struggle on a full stomach
And that's why
The context kills me
I can't explain it
But that doesn't make it a mystery
In life we persist to die
And in death we persist to live
So be secured
In the faith of consistency
The faith comes with a presence
Of being safe
The context
Of all of this kills me
In my innocence
I can't take it all
I can't cry for the same reason
Knowing the divine
I wanted to capture
The essence
Perhaps
You can see it in the majesty
Of modesty
The essential qualities of life
Coming with satisfaction
How I have been bored
How I have seen my own form
How I have come to respect
The harmony
Of thoughtful modesty
It goes beyond
Like the mystery

Hero

Can you hear
If your shining?
The words floating above
The skyline
Like the promises
Of waking up
When we sleep in dreams
We dream of sleep
To the essential nature
Of life
We dream
Not used to taking
A stand
In our responsibility
In the relevance
Of our life
The relevance
Of the promises we found
So sweet
The nature of indulgence
Impinging on the future
As we pay the price
We are made worthy
Of the next guest
We have made of this place
At the end
Of our umbilical
Bliss
Was the scream of life
The pain of occurrence
And as some dwell in the scream
Others dream of the bliss
Finding it
At the end of their voices
In others ears
Seeing for a moment
The point of living

To our senses
We are a guest
So be one
Of modesty
Asking before
We submit to the vice
Of mixed assumptions
I'm sorry
It was hard
As we caved in
Earned the desire
To be free
In our cages
Of insecurity
To the mighty
Surrender
Goes the reward
Of safety
As persistence
In the turning
Of our gifts
Into the sky
Of difficulty
Brings us to a new place
Looking around
For the desire we felt
In the moment lost
To times betrayal
Our negativity.

Dilute the senses
Past our inspection
Of ourselves
Past the uncertainty
The spirit prevails
In the tears of
Open memories
A voice of tolerance
Sounding inside
Our minds
Tolerance for what we felt
As we rediscover
What we mean
Continually
Again
Only to forget
Is this forgotten
Myth
A mystery
As eyes seek what's inside
No longer stuck to the appearance
Of lust
The ripples on the water
Are as beautiful
As your smile
And some can smile
And cry
All in the same breath
While others take turns
Or perhaps
Forget
Remembering sides
To the story
Came as close
As we could
To the mystery

Selfish pain
Seeks an end
To the means
Of discovery
The senses we persist
Allowing us to suffer
And perhaps
To feel bliss
The mutual expression
Of our souls
Through the miracle
Of the defeat
Of our vehicles
Of doubt
The hero of bliss
Saving us
In our nourishment

Something Greater

You can have the whole wide world
The best part was always in your eyes
All the walls
We built for falling
It's all in order
Given way to the power
Of insecurity
Frozen
We drift away
So much easier to put it away
Facing the complications
Is a clever game
Of dependency
As I said
We built the walls
For falling
And now my hands rust
In the power
Of the dust
left behind by our feelings
For each other
And now the excellence surrounds
As the negative consequences die
Leaving us in our distinction
A puddle of our own opinions
Left still believing
How can we drift
Without knowing where we are going
Drifting like a puddle
All the negative emotions
Like a parody
Of the power
That speaks to me
Makes it difficult
For me to sleep
Im lost like the moon
In the glow of something greater

Who Persist

The jaded sun
Sees itself in our eyes
While the rest of us
Survive
Even the birds have security
In their numbers
Who answers the call of loneliness
Some don't hear the call
At all
Safety in numbers means nothing
When your lonely inside
And while the birds peck for food
And some don't answer the call
The beauty is the silence inside
Our wants deafening our ears
Still I want

We sleep in the jaded sun
Afraid of our own victory
Until the time is right
And the tears have been shed
when there's no blood
Being shed
The victory goes to those
Who persist
So let the sun be jaded
For it can see the suffering
The pain reminds me
Of the error of my ways
And that comes from a place
Of security

swollen pride dies, in shards of attachment

The gentle disgrace
Of wonder
Belittles none
As our days
Speak for themselves

Truth
Full of itself
Is all around
Ready to be traded
For personal
Glory

It's not a sad
Story
But it brings tears
To my eyes
Because
Of what it meant
To us
And some
Sacrifice
As others
Resent
The choices they made

True glory
Is not in any of us
I won't repeat the story
This wasn't given to me

Because to those who sacrifice
See what's happening around them
their reasoning
Continues
Outside the boundaries
Of what is thought about them
Of what we know so well

We can't avoid our destiny
And that doubt
Will only delay
The game
Well it feels like
That's about as delayed as
Could be
Trite
The surrounding
Fills me
As I worry
About the wonder
The gentle disgrace
Of lost inhibitions
Something we couldn't keep
Now I feel light
Because I let go
The circle of life completes
Itself
Can you see
Us hanging onto
Judgements
While our minds
Decay
Like all our creations
Suspended
As the wonders of the world
Are no longer
Worried about
Happiness
Brings it's own rewards
Stuck in the mud
Of delusions
About the game
About all of us
Welcome to
The dream
The dream survives
On seeds of wonder
Traces of regret
Oh the subtlety
Of blowing smoke
To the heavens
Popularly known
As an opinion
Held in a mind
Beset by it's options
And then it happens by itself
A path of choices
Given way
To a spectacle
Of personal glory
We found a story of our own
Separating us
By our swelled
Heads
Passing by
The faith
Of openness
To the wonder
So it doesnt become
A simple lie
A wasted life
Precious to itself
And no one else
That's the price we pay
For the swollen pride
Like a pregnancy
Of attachment
A swelling defeated only by the birth
Of satisfaction
Lighting our world
With the open
Mistakes we made
So be it
I say

Smiles

Beauty
It's what you see
When your mind
Is undistracted
By the currency
Looking at these things
Smiles
The universal currency
Of emotion
With the beauty of the world
Slipping through the cracks
Defeating the negativity
I was born crying
And you calmed me down
And now slipping through the cracks
Is the beauty of the world
I'm no longer amazed
Standing as the world moves around me
Found the beauty again
I thought I had lost it
In my intent
To be real
I conquered the envy
No longer do I linger
In a place of urgency
For all I did
As an escape
Brought about
An envy I couldn't defeat
Without the celestial current
Of spiritual love
That which no longer brings attachment
To what I have
Making me wonder at what I don't
Victory to the faithful
Courage to the lovers of the divine
Ambivalence to those intent upon the envious nature
Of judgement
Unfiltered by arrogance
Are those
Truly existing beyond the veins of troubled minds
And those troubled by life
Finding recourse in each other
Will paint their days
As those beyond the judgement
The reckoning
Are lifted beyond the throes
Of death
The vibration of negativity
Which found our souls
So imperfect
And here we are
Troubled minds
Another lesson to learn
Till perfection
Out of love
Is found
And no longer do our voices play with the negative
As we gasp for air
At our own cost
Showing every imperfection of our own
With our judgements of others
Unveiled to that mind seeing
The inner light sparkling

Kingdoms of Roads

Keep to your choices
Those are the choices you made
Made you what you became
And trying to change the past
Never happened
Like the unicorn
Maybe in another place
Separated
But we don't speak
Of the separated
The union of what we want
And what we are
I can see the beauty of the world
It dribbles down
From above
The hope that despite the warning
Of hasty beginnings
I won't try to change the past
Say this that I did was bad
I'll keep to my choices
And defend the future
From becoming
Another part of the illusion
And not turn on myself
In service of a sympathy
Fueled by dissatisfaction
Please be pleased
Make my life
The cloud that parts
The skies of man
Fit for falling
Down over yourself
To pander the illusion
Of wasted time
Because I was well intentioned
And will be judged perfectly
By my maker
My cause was just
Better to do the wrong thing
For the right reasons
Than the opposite
Doing the right thing
For the wrong reasons
Yes that's a warning
For those
Who are taken
By the aesthetics
Of violence
The cause of blood
And turn their face towards the other
Full of lust
Lust for another time
Lust for what they they thought they had become
Look for what surrounds you
Finding release
In the surrounding
Everything
Strength is taught
Strength isn't bought
With opinions
The wind moves the sky
Like power moves the tide
Of mankind
Coalescing
Collecting
In pools of cities
And kingdoms of roads
Moving again
Until the last thing
We do
And then we move
In a completely new direction
A direction I pause at
And wonder
I gave myself for a cause
Unknown
And should I die
Know that it wasn't a mistake

Letting Go

False like a ghost
A ghost whispering
Your destiny
I feel it
And I took it
For granted
The ghost whispers
But I don't hear it
Intent on my day
On what seems real to me
I say the ghost is false
The ghost of another day
Calling my name
And making me wonder
What could of been
I didn't choose my destiny
But I chose
What does it mean
To choose an ending
To something
You love
Because god told you so
Letting go
Was never meant to last forever
But when it comes back
What will you say
That it's the ghost of another day
Strength in my chest
I grow older
And my smile shines
What I chose
What am I missing
I ask myself
I don't miss you
So I don't say a thing
False I try not
And I don't know
My destiny
But what I know
Is I shouldn't give in
To the false
Urge to make this easy on myself
It would be so easy wouldn't it
And leave me empty
Another filled lost soul
With vengeance in my mind
My wits no longer form sentences
Starting to shine like my smile
Shine like an empty ocean
With a drop left
Reflecting the sun
While the shadow
Of other days
Creeps in
Bringing us back
To the times when
The ocean was full
And we were empty
Looking for a way to be
Ourselves
Now the ocean is empty
And that one last drop calls my name
And makes me wonder
While it reflects my world
That's my world
May the ghost that whispers
The mystery of your past
The mystery of your doubt
The mystery of your destiny
Be well received
I called mine false
For too long
Ignoring when I fell
Looking up to the sky
When I got up
It always fall apart
Before it comes together
Again
And if that's a mystery
Welcome back
To the ghost

Wonder Why: Familiarity

A stroke of familiarity
With heavens brush
I lose myself in the crowd
Nothing special
I saw the waste
In our souls
As our guts regurgitate
Apologies
A sweet melody
Of deceit
Trading today
For tomorrow
And as I look inside them
There exists
A stroke of familiarity
As if a painting of heaven
Spoke to me
In volumes of intuition
Similar to the inspiration
Similar
And if I look close enough
The familiarity begins again
As if I couldn't get enough
The first time around
So I let heaven
Paint the picture
With whatever brush
Is preferred
Life is a high stakes game
To some
As others are too frail
To play with anything
But our hearts
Chasing afterthe skies
Seen on sunny days
Repeating the message
As i regurgitate
The sweet melody
Received in honesty
The honesty
Not to be traded away
Even if we are in agony
For we rest in each other
Let this rest continue
Begettiing hope
And perhaps: Surrender
And embrace the dieing day
We stop and listen
To the words
And whats below
Wondering
Which is more important
You were in a special place to me
A place reserved
Out of trust
A trust that exists no more
And in my reserve
I separate my love
And find myself
In the sweet nothingness
Of mankind
What am I?
Is a phrase we ask ourselves
When the daylight
Is separated from the sunny day
Then we wonder why
The question persisting
Till we get what we wanted
Then the questions disappear
To reappear
Another day
It sounds sincere
And perhaps beautiful
To wonder why
When we deserve the world
To wonder why
When the picture is complete
For all we can see
For all we can doubt
Is just the image
Of the divine

Resilience

The joy of the world
An ambition
That can't be controlled
Still we strive

Out of style
The reticence
A fountain of disbelief
Fed with the waters
Of waste
So look to the beautiful
And offer some grace
As if you were any more lost

An apology
For the distraction
From virtue
That was my mind
Before the surrender

Based in desire
Our body impure
Enough because
Our vanity
Will never
Stop time

The pursuit
Of virtue
Clean
The wildness of our youth
As the future
Dawns on our shoulders
With a clear mind
And clean sight
We are offered
An end to our ambition
Of passion
What will be planted in it's place
A steady seed
Conquering the disbelief
Of false hope
An indication
Of being at the end of our rope
Battered by the ocean of life
Looking for the port of salvation
We wipe the sleep from our eyes
The armored ones
Armored by the words of their god
Speak volumes
Of persistence
Of the resilience
A friend of the body and mind
Inhabited
An ethology of soul
Transmutes the flesh
Into spirit
At the time of death

The Days

Life's a blessing to the blessed
And a curse to those cursed
To those in between
It's still a test
Oh the wicked air
Of vice
Disturbs that righteous mind
Still remembering it's tests
While those in steady bliss
Remain undiscerned
And undisturbed
In the grandeur of our lust
We don't stumble when we should
As the grandeur
Is not in the individual
But in the civilization as a whole
I feel the lust
But it does no duty
To me
Seek not an image of yourself
For you are the image of god
Aspiring to this
Be still my mind
Abandon all vice
Or the days
Will leave you empty

the heart of man

our hearts were made
for each other
our hearts were made
without conceit
a stain on the stainless

missing

our hearts were made
without device
which we learned
stimulated
received
the environment

missing
the other
that which we absorb
and change
no destruction

and as our actions
belie our source
our transmigratory cycle
that we are born into
disbelief
in our origins
does nothing
makes a spectacle
of the love
we find
in our wandering

don't wait
to watch
and watch
to wait
a sobering thought
the love we found
shows us our heart
leads us forward
a place in time
beyond destruction
powering the memories
of the past
upon our shoulders
rests our righteousness
and the issue
is our device
and its image
vice

how we made it through
with the weakness we took
the shortcut
it wasn't right
and the love we found
has become a memory
while to some
still in it
it intoxicates
changes

our hearts were made for each other
and to those
who seek not the image
of the divine
seek after the actual
the price we paid
becomes a memory
an issue
of the past

how we made it through
the times
mankind surrounding us

Great Spirit of Mankind

Deny yourself
And you'll want again
Burn slow
Steady mind
The great spirit
Of mankind
The passage of the soul
Through the times of man
A humble spirit
Not that of design
Of surrender of the mind
To the spirit that is
The spirit that conquers all
Restrain yourself
No denial
A mortal sin against your mortal soul
The denial will leave you wanting
While the strength to restrain
Is akin to a blessing
Bear with the aggression for some time
Pleasant soul
No recourse
But that of the divine
Like a dog on a leash
Knowing not what it's owner pulls for
The protection of the above
The restraint practiced by the mind
Noticed by those inside
There's a thin line between
The mysteries you were meant to know
In time
And the occult
Which will be the death
Of your design
So kind soul
Be humble besides your maker
Beside the exposition of your flaws
Your humility
No recourse against the divine
The divine image of mankind
Resubmit
It will clear your mind
He who takes a life
Takes his own
Listen to the great spirit of the times

Praises

A vain enjoyment
Takes me to bed again
I'm sorry
The world goes on

Oh how we praise
The sinless
With our hearts
As our minds
Dwell on ourselves
And our hands light
The world
With compassion

I can feel it coming around
Passing by
My vanity
The things I've clung to
Have become weights
And how they weigh me down

I begin to grasp
Again onto myself
Becoming as a weight
To my own soul
What a burden

I can't help but look for something
To spice this up
Cause the familiar flavor
Excites me not

A selfless sword
The word of god
The only thing
Worth clinging to
In this ocean of the seeds of man
The seeds of doubt
Growing plants of disbelief

Somehow I turned it around
Just don't ask me how
The secret is in the transmission
Faith's conquest over green shrubs
Of disbelief
Grown with the water of the discontent
Forever green
With envy

Was I put here to just consume
I ask
As I smoke a cigarette
Iv'e seen too much
To not ask why
Still amazed with the outcome
But it's for me to experience
Not to be separated from
May my heart sing the praises of heaven
And my soul revel in the absence of doubt
Cause with these eyes
I see a hangover
Taking thousands of years
Pulling us back and forth
Through time
Wondering
And wishing
For those times we held so close
Sad when we realize
They are never coming back
Happy when it comes around again
So be it as it may
I will remain
Until again I am called
In service of the divine
Hoping my praises were heard
That heaven may prevent me serving
Anything
Else

Of Our Own Device

Of our own device
I see death between
Sheltered palms
Sheltered from the storm of life
In the pleasant
Things they've found along the way

Dead of our own device
I can see
The ego
Dissassemble
In its place
Holy smoke
The fire coming from above
And all the heavens
Of the truth
Couldn't stop
The downfall
Of wasted time
It's nothing without you here
Without a soul to color the abyss
It exists not
And without the ego
Justifications
Of comfort
I feel the strength
In my chest
My heart

And now I'm falling down
We wonder when it's gonna come around
There's so much to hold an opinion about
But none of it will save your soul

One day we will see past
The passions of our own choices
You may remember why
From time to time
It's not the same
Filled with the weakness of our vice
Which is seen not
In the comfort so afraid
So afforded
By the ignorance
The darkness
These worldly things
Attract my vice

An enticement of sorts
Giving in to the spirit
Brings me relief
I can feel the love
In my chest
Makes me feel
More than just a wish

It was given to me
A way past this vice
The tragedy of lost time
A picture of our device
Is worth a million words
Well then I say
Look inside

And the great sky will open to you
Not the one above your head
The sky of the world of man
The sky I speak of
Has no clouds
No need of the silver lining
It's pure
Seen by those
Who aren't afraid
Of the world

It's all light
Duality only exists
Where there's a price
To be paid by our minds
The ups and downs

I thought I lost
My device
In the sparkle
Of the world
Back again
It never ends

I would embrace
The answer to this
And of course it comes
But I speak no more
Given into silence
In place of judgment

Throes of Passion

When ignorance like darkness overtakes us
We ignore those in the throes
Of passion
A love for something that turns you
Upside down
The throes of passion
A begging of the heart
For more
Besides the excellence that guides
Us to all that is good
The spirit of the holy god
Without him
The darkness overtakes us in our
Elegance
An elegance of the heart
Wanting more
No more to the throes of passion
For there will always be more
And then a withdrawal
When that which amazes you
No longer stops you in your tracks
Goodness then takes us
The only truth
Is that which exists
And in it's existence
We know ourselves
To be what we are
Oh heroic soul!
Guide me past this place
With the goodness of the above
Leading me less astray
Every day
The price has been paid
By our maker
The price of faith
Is the task of our suffering
To realize the fear and the love of god
Go hand in hand
The spirit gives all that is good
While the flesh beckons
Like the land of the dead
Those who were deaf to the light of life
And in the darkness
They were pushed farther away
From the children of the light
Those who God has taken
In the hands of God
We are taken
With the choice
To perish
Or to be reborn
In the majesty of our faith
The majesty which is the glory of God
Inside each of the faithful
A gift of spirit
Received to free you from the fear
Of the godless
Make no false gods
Oh heroic soul!
False gods we have made of this place
The worship of love forgets the task of faith
To fear nothing but God
And love everything through him
The sweet fragrance of salvation
Impeding the darkness
The trite which has fallen by the wayside
An ignorance lost
As the above suggests we lighten
Our load
And make no false gods
Saying this is the goodness
Here it is
It takes up your time
Without the perfection
Of your mind
Redemption
From the throes of passion
Passion will always let you down
Like the clouds raining
The particles of our mind
Upon the earth
So let go of the earthly passion
And your worship of these things mankind has designed
Nothing is good
But God
And nothing is sacred
But that which brings us closer
To the living truth
The living God

Always Time

Our bones are already buried
In our hands
As they work
To hold everything together
In this place
Of wandering
Lust

It was so terrible to watch
A collapse
Of our minds
And our actions follow
Something mysterious
It can't be denied
It's what the faithless
Believe in
Those who can't
Quiet their minds
Wandering lust
From place to place

What do you believe in
Besides the future
day
Your own subconscious existence
Faith in yourself

It was so terrible to watch
With this mind
Your mind discerns the reasons
But what about the reasons
Of the mind
That which propels us forward
To see the world
And discern ourselves
In time


I think not
And in doing so
Am aware of what is below
This continuing stream of desire
That leads nowhere fast
Which I could never respect

The desire points to a solution
For the lost mind
Drunk on emotions
Finding meaning in the temporary
And losing what it has
From time to time

It shouldn't be your dear destination
Blessed be the hopeless
Strung with strings of desire
Which make an unavoidable music
The music of lust
We've seen this movie over and over
Playing since the root of time
Which waters the tree of the eternal
It goes on forever
Have you not never needed a thing?
As if everything you did
Was in the grace of your creator
Truly you have found your bones
Where will you bury them?
In your hands?
In the actions of you wishing well
In your mind?
Thoughts of yourself taking up your time
What is new is the design
Bury your bones in Time
Bringing you forward
If your granted rest
From the necessity of life

I can feel it
So close
Time
No wondering why
Times increases my faith
Assures me of my fate
The fate of the lovers of each other
Has no need for the lost
There's always Time

Don't Wonder

Pouring down the sides
Of a cup
Called
Visceral emotion
Beneath the fire
We live for the next breath
As if living wasn't enough

Beneath the fire
Sings the air
Another song
For all of us

I took what I love
Far enough
To let it go
Had enough
Seen the shadow
Of my blessings
Upon my brow

My family
My blood
My life
It just goes to show
What your thinking of

Where could you lose
The lost become safe
With grace
Safe in their redemption
Just takes some time
To see the ending
No need to rewind

So take your time
The ending is always surreal
When you can hear the sound
Of the ambush of our minds
By the things that make us wonder
How's it going to come around

Wake up and smell
The dieing flowers
Dieing to find a way out
Disgrace
My sins are burning away
And all I can think of
Is being saved
It fills you up
Better than the cup
Of visceral emotion
I'm sorry it'll never last
Just another feeling
In your mind
You've felt them before
They go away with time

Safe in the question
What do you do with your time
Don't wonder
Don't wish
It's not quite time
That's why

catastrophe

its a catastrophe
they beg for it to end
they beg for their life
to be taken from them
they beg for their lives
anything to change their fate
it's a catastrophe

and when our fate crystallizes
will you be the one begging
when
no one can change a thing
cause you made it for yourself
lives past
spent in yourself

well here is the reaction
so cling to it
be it bad or good
another choice
a thing to do
we saw it so clearly
in our minds
and then it broke it pieces
in our hands

no one can do a thing
but surrender

thinking
one day your body
will fall apart
in little pieces
called a masterpiece
of temporary satisfaction

you cant battle
without a fight
just like you cant
dream
without a price
feel it in your heart
in your soul

no one can do a thing
but surrender

its a catastrophe
thinking
won't get you out of this one
too much blood
was spent
on emptiness
when there's a price to pay
there's profit for someone to gain
but who wins
when the price to pay
is your happiness
your life
don't act like you don't know the answer
to this one

they came
they conquered
our ancestors
born in the primordial sea
left us a pretty picture
of how it all worked out

no one ever told you
how to let go
how to survive
in unlimited time

and no one
can do a thing
but surrender

The Choice

And the days are stealing away
Our innocence
As if you wouldn't be caught dead
Pure
Free of vice
Every now and then
I can see it in their eyes
Complacency
In the sins of the time
Everyone does it
And excuse that couldn't be passed
By our minds
Full of excuses
That remind me of another time
This age old habit
Of dieing
As if being devout
Wasn't enough for them
The land of the dead
Beckons
But don't let it get
To your head
Full of life
Full of risk
You were once
And we can't give in
To the enemy of man
Without some sort
Of test
Of righteousness
Of faith
As if the devil
Would just go away
Without your savior's blood
Shed in
Another time
So far away
It comes to you
As respite
Killing another joker
Intent on materials
The land of the dead
Calls your name
But don't let it get to your
Head
Your reputation
As a victim
Couldn't fill you with this much dread
The lake of fire
Found you safe
In your victimhood
But whose choice was it
To choose life over death
And not in this instant
Your either living to die
Or dieing to live
Nothing is more important
Than your conscious choice
No more excuses
Cause I chose
I'd rather die now
And live forever
Than live now
And die forever
That's my choice
So bury me
Wherever you'd like

The Time When

The death of the day
Is the reason of the night
Taken by the senses
They pursue their lives
Like another love
That you couldn't see
Till it was too late
To change

Our design
Our dangerous
Security
We can't see the light
For the day
Cause we're too close
To our own
Hearts

The pain
Helps you see straight
Like a lost cause
Consumes
Those who follow

A special remedy
For those
Unable
To touch the beauty of the world
As if we could ever see
For the sake of our eyes
They serve the body
As we serve the higher
Why don't you save the world
From itself
Another reason
To wonder why
I am your desire

It was enough
To decide
For myself
That it was all wrong

So carry your futile
Personality
A response
To the righteous
And the wicked
When it feels like
It's all over
For all of us

Like the answer
Was temporary enough
For some subtle
Recognition

Flaws were spent
In service
For something unknown
I spent my past
Seeking the pleasant
When all I needed
Was to not be
Forsaken

A separate story
Teaching us how to run
Away
No way to see
In anything but black and white
The color of our lives

Looking back
There's no way
To see straight
Without
And end for something real
That we held so close
So don't listen to your
Arrogance

Listen and again
We will seek
The sound coming through us
It's real

An arrogance
That you couldn't get rid of
As much as you tried
The revelation
Of your soul
Saying one more time
Over and over again

We could all pursue
The happening
The persistence
That we carried forward
To another choice
Made in respite
Of what we needed

Never made another choice
That's what you hoped for
Like it could be forever
What happened
It made you what you are

All the fire
All the design
Was never enough
To put a stop
To the murder
Of our design
The thoughts
In our mind
The way we spent our time

Presently we saw
How we all made it out alive
It was like we save our life
In time for everything
To change
Once again
Like the chance we've become

Dieing is an artform
As well as what you've hoped for
People pass by
Whatever they don't know
Like the murder
Of our mind
Seeking the new
In time for the time
When you realize it all

I Pray, Shatter me

Persist
Bearing the burden
Your life wasn't made for you
Your action is required
I know why you did it
Because it felt good
Shatter me
It felt good
So I did it
But now I see
What's not to be
Shatter me
I clung to what I felt
Because it felt good
Your life wasn't made for you
I will bear everything
For my maker
And only for that
Try to persuade me
I said try
Because everything is not as it should
Your action is required
And if you fail
You will return
So shatter me
My god
I wish to be shattered
So I can receive the instruction
Do not be led
By what's in the the back of your head
The guidance is real
Shattered I see the instruction
Doubt is a disease
It used to serve my pleasure
But I've received the instruction
Seen what's important
And it shattered me
And I'm glad
Know that it's true
When you couldn't be more faithful
When your grateful
For this chance to suffer
For a cause
To know I'm real
Your keeping it
In the back of your head
But I say persist
I can feel myself cling
To the pleasant
Which is why I look up
And pray
Shatter me
To persist
And when the angel of death
Is staring you in the face
Know that you will feel the fear
Unless you live to bear your burden
And not for the pleasantries around
I feel the fear
I know it's real
Because I've lived for myself
Pitted myself
Against the all knowing
Your trial
Your tribulation
Your choice

And when the angel of death
Looks you in the eyes
Prepared to carry you effortless
Those who know they are real
Will be without fear

And I know what your thinking
That your god does not want you to suffer
You will be rewarded
With a reward beyond measure

But the only thing that can kill your fear
Bring you to paradise
Is to pass through this place
Of measure
And bounds

This place of warning
Of pleasure
And pain

It's for you to pass through
Instruction
Is enough
How will you know it's real

The instruction
Is enough

falls in cords, of necessity

It's all on the floor
My scattered thoughts
I pick them up with an emotion
Not unlike
Draining the ocean

For here we are
As if the custom
Of needing someone
Came too soon
For our wasted youth

I see the tragedy in the teeth of the lion
And beauty in the fluttering of a house fly

Doubting that they really exist
They will move from want to want
Unaware of the true self
To dance with matter
Is a pose quite unbecoming
In one as smooth as you
Not an inkling of an ego
For surrendered it has been
And now we become refined
Hark!
Can you hear the silence
Like a million jaded people
Sick on love
You can tell your human
Because your still lonely when your alone
Hurt when rejected
Sad when affected
But what is this?
The true self coming when the external world
No longer entices
As it has for ages
Seducing our souls into wanting
For which we will wander this
Landscape of emotion
It's ups and downs for a reason
It's unreasonable for you to ask me
Why
This jacket of youth
Unties
And falls in cords
Of necessity
No longer needed
The true self is bliss
May you understand
All that you breathe is bliss
Misunderstood as an object
What is an object to transcendence?

Instead of False Hope, A Time for Spirit

They supplied the fire
With some tiny fuel
A smile here and there

A wasted life
Wasted on yourself
To please an endless sympathy
Well some would hope that there is an end
When they close their eyes
And others face eternity
And sometimes with my eyes open
I can still see
Eternity

You really felt
That things would change
Further steps away from your destiny
The people change the cycles remain the same

We've been working with these hands
Forgetting everything along the way
Hoping for a physical redemption
I'm sorry my friend but you can't bring your flesh
To where your hoping to go
For flesh and blood
Cannot inherit the kingdom
Of God
And deeds of the flesh can be departed from
You were hoping for a physical redemption
Of what you see in the mirror smiling back at you
As if a glass eye could see
How could flesh look upon the beauty of the
Living God

With flesh
We've worked our lives with the flesh
Only to be taught
To walk in the flesh no more
Because the spirit calls you in
Lucky to be called
For some are still lost
Another mystery upon us
Works of faith not of flesh
Shall be preformed by the faithful
And this clean attitude is all I require
Let not the toil of your blood bring you down
And your history of flesh
The spirit was always inside
Just let it lead the way
Instead of your libido
Which I hope is fading away
Your conscience
Sure it connects but can it lead you to
The promised land
From the systematic reunion
Of the Flesh
In those below us
To the spiritual union given by above us
Can it bring you to paradise
So simply shed these things born of the flesh and walk in the spirit
The actions you perform in this life
Bring you the benefit of that body in the next

We've driven away the demons of false hopes
the lies to steal away our rapture
a rapture needing nothing but the lord
and your casket is not yet closed
your spirit reviles what you've done
these things do not mix
spirit and flesh
they are opposed
although he walked among us
do not think that you
can harbor those in sin
without first being reborn
in him

whats the point of me giving your flesh a thing
nice perhaps
for a temporary state in time
while your spirit falters
with what to do
only because you care
be called forward
do as your called
in peace
in mercy

because we walk among
explosions of ignorance
eyes full of memories
seeing only their fellows
their opportunites
and the dieing will die
and in the grace of the company you find release
our tradition

dance of the dead

A waste of time
Not unlike trying to turn
Water into wine
I turn my face towards my god
Hearing his signs
Wasn't enough for you
When I sought to be content in the guidance
Simply living a life of surrender
Not to please myself
Rather to please that above
And when well pleased
I feel the ocean of doubt
Drift away
Like oil on the surface of the water
It clogs
And burns away
With the spark of faith
I rehearse the favors given to me
Not appreciating was a waste of time
It was sugar coated
And you couldn't get yourself out of
The middle

Because of the temptation
Which was allowed to touch the beauty of your choice
A test
Forgiveness for not realizing
Sugar coated
Was an indulgence
And it sold yourself short
Of the glory
Of the power
Beg for your suffering to be taken from you
Beg for your wish to be granted to you
Prayer wasn't meant to succeed your wants

Rather to feel the presence
Perhaps what you want will be given to you
Would that not sell those who came before you
Those who struggled some without
The begging of their souls
The best you could ask for
Is to be shown the way
Not the indulgence of a material want
A weakness
One for which you will have no answer
For it was told before your birth
That the righteous will suffer
But what is suffering to those who
Know the truth
Like smoke on the surface
Curling away from itself
What is suffering
To those with joy in their hearts
A meaning I forgive myself
For seeking in another heart
Because it comes from above
And as I live to please my lord
The vanity is touching thin
And underneath I see strength


For those of faith
The answers are all around them
Finding something deeper
Than comfort
Certainly you will be comfortable
When you pass your test
And find glory
In the pleasing of your god
One for which all else was made
Simply to please
Don't make me say this twice
You weren't born here to please yourself
And as our forgetful nature
Hides our scars
In an imperfect memory
Living like an animal
Is living to please oneself
One's people
All of it temporary
So hold onto your legacy
While everything else floats away
Could have been so simple
To not hold your success
And failure
So close
Like the stars
In reality
You could never touch
And inside the moment
Was your chance
To surrender
And on your deathbed
Watch this all pass away
The dance of the dead
Was to live
And love
That way
Holding it close
For fear it would pass away
While the dance of the dead
Brings us temporary happiness
Lasting like our death
For a moment in time
The dance of the dead