Unity of Selflessness

I think this world can bend and break
Before I do
Perhaps because
 I signed myself to a cause
Of selflessness

And now the patience
Comes as tomorrow
Does

Did you need to pull me in
One last time?

I think the world
Of you
My brethren

But I'll let the world bend and break
Before I do

Selflessness doesn't break in pieces of emotion
Known as negative
So I'll break it all
My carnal self
Reborn in the spirit
Of patience
Of diligence
Of satisfaction

 Where were you
When I needed you?

Now it's all of
This
The partial
Or the whole?
What will you choose?

Negativity
Is just a lack of
Satisfaction
You see that desire
Yeah it will be back
Again

The Angels have taught
The way
And made saints of many
And through this spiritual discourse
We seek the savior

Ask and you shall receive
If you ask with faith
Your resurrection shall occur

The power is not to get what you think you want
But to get what you truly desire
In your heart
That which satisfies
Your soul

And in return
For getting what I want
The words of discourse
Challenge
The ignorance

You see
A challenging life

I see perfection taking
It's course

An idealistic surrender
When you feel
The superior force
For the greater good
Surrender
It will save you
From a lifetime
Of suffering

And as the kingdom takes it's place
We achieve our destiny

So stay pretty
If it's all you can do
For none is worthless
under the sight
Of the lord

As we serve
We rule
In our servitude

The authority of our father
In heaven
Carries us forward
If we choose
The path of correction

The holy spirit
Descends to the temple
Of our being
And shows us the meaning
Of satisfaction

How can something
Pain the spirit of satisfaction
For the blessings bring you beyond your means
And what can break
Doesn't need to be fixed
For to lose the life of attachment
Is to gain the life of bliss

And this bliss is spiritual
Not material
Not of the crowd of temporary sustenance
Is the unity of the spirit

Blessed Be Our Vessels

Refrain
Rephrase
Find my course

I go with the fire
The holy fire...
The errand of the portrait
Is the seeking of release
Yes paint me a portrait
Of your heartbreak

I'll find release
I let myself die
To be reborn
Again

And now I'm not trying to understand
Because the spirit is with me
I just look at the scenery
You see this mystery
I see angst clouding a perfect sky
And the spirit is release

Dieing to never feel this way
The flesh permutations of pleasure and suffering
I give in to sacrifice
Rid myself of this
Turmoil
Give me the spirit of grace
And I am grateful
Lo' and behold
The poverty is increase
As I hold not the false king
Of glory
Of materials
To increase my ego

The dust settles
And I wake up to the memories
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Anointed as our savior
It's like I can hear
The chimes
Of heaven
And the story they tell

And swim in this glory
Of holy fire
I will never seek freedom
From the yoke of Christ
Shall I give you a word?
If not the word of the kingdom
Full of discretion
And warning
So hope
That your words become full
Anointed as our savior
And you sing
Of the anointed we come
To live through the death of the consequence
Of the law
The fulfillment of the law
Lives in my heart
As the spirit resides
In another redeemed
By the blood of Christ

It comes through
A genuine sacrifice
Becoming a toll of another lost soul
Finding the light
A toll of grace
Given in blood of the anointed one

I see
You see
How petty it would be to shake this off
The words you say
And judge
Oh receive the spirit of judgement
The spirit of patience!

I won't put bondage on the free
So don't judge me
Because life is all around us
As we refer
To ourselves
Your pleasure
Is nothing compared
To the spirit of grace
The spirit of things to come
So I surrender
And to not be whimsical
My whims die
To not be fanciful
I release from my lost self

And in benediction
I find something worth
This vessels time
And my creator
Blessed be our vessels
For we drink from the infinite
Yet to find anything
Worthy of distracting me
With the finite grasps
It grasps onto me
As I grasp
And the holy fire
Sets me free

So I see

The Spiritual Whole

The spirit of peace
Is in the spirit of war
The tone of one
For the benefit of the other

Yes we fight for peace
And this indiscretion
You see it put me at ease
Not because it was what I wanted
But because it was a part
Of all of this

The spirit of happiness
The communion of life
Disciples of fate
Between the rhythm of time
What makes a man a man
Is it his sight?
Though the blind tell you how to strut

The communion of life
Brings us forward
Receiving the passion of saints
Those whom we look to help
Deliver us
And in our brotherhood
We find a grace and a benediction

And in our brotherhood...
We don't wait
To tell each other
How we feel

Receiving the flow of compassion
Each moment
Part of the spiritual whole
Do not struggle against the glad tidings
Of our salvation
For no one will be saved alone
But rather in the spirit of graciousness
The spirit of benevolence
The spirit of brotherhood

To the Spirit, I Hope, I Am Free

I look back on my scars
A spiritual conquest
Gone awry
And now the spirit resides
In whatever it touches
Through me I see
A primal destruction
Of whats wrong

A spiritual surrender
To the spirit of fate
Indistinguishable
From the spirit of
Our free will
Oh heavenly father
We seek to know

To surrender my will
Again I remember
A time when I was gone
From this place

And in my surrender
The spirit resides
My ego dies
A primal destruction
Again

The spirit of the modern world
Lifts me up
To the skies of a proper civilization
In spirit we fall
To be caught
And in the flesh
We are nevermore
Ourselves
Only a fault
And a feeling

The image of doubt
Was the image I thought
Again I surrender
To the spirit of defiance
To the petty indiscretion
I hope
I am free

The Fruit of the Spirit

I try reality
A deepeness not in the muck
Twisted ankles
Can't step back?
And relax?

Funny to find the middle
Where the washing occurs
I follow the fruit of the spirit
Where there is a great washing of spirit
The flesh dies

One last time to find the truth
Shadow is just a separation of the light
Cursed in its increase
And ever defeated by the prisms of the seed

Try the rest?
Try reality...
I can let go of this and submit
To the holy fire
Intercession
Of saints
Yes
And pray

Because...
How can twisted ankles
Step back
And relax?


No certainity
When I speak full
In the vanity
I listen to the words of man
Back again
No remission
Without sacramental baptism

It is in the certainity
That the words are not my own
The outpouring of the spirit

I just let it happen

Tragedy is to not receive
The gift of the spirit
And take your position
The herald of your reward
The call of the golden blessing
Sealing your fate in the faith of truth
The heavenly reality

Still the answers exist
For the questions we never seek
Lo' the distance was a failure
Don't stop for ourselves
No reason besides the forgotten

The answer was not a burden
To be forgetten
Like a failure
Too soon to be forgiven

And far too soon
To not be an end to the part
Desiring the flesh
A carnal excuse I hear far removed
From our creation
I try to be respectful
With my body

Thank god for the fire of the heavenly host
You will be surprised
When it descends
Burning an increase
Into your happiness

We are the the anointed proof
To the power
Still wanting to increase?
Not watching the spirit remind us
Of our savior

Oh,
In my increase
I can't just let this go
Proof to the power is inside of us
Receiving a gift
Spiritual remission
Of this flaw

Dancing with remorse
A flawed recourse
Difficulty strain doubt and then release
It's the tribulation of the sense of self
Those with sincere hopes may last and cross the gate of Heaven

Not To Repeat the Lust of Mistakes

Looking for meaning
In an injection
Sorry
A confession

 The realization a year later
It wasn't  done to come to an end

It was to forget about the rest
Things aren't always what they seem
In retrospect I should have admitted
This place confuses me

But instead the course of actions
Sprawled through the satisfaction
Of carnality
That I still feel inside of me

Now
I'm losing a disinterest in life
The consequence of
Seeing an illusion so clearly
As to ignore the rest

Its a shame what we do to ourselves

There's nothing so close
Love it and hate it
Let go
Don't go back
To repeat
The lust of mistakes

Its easy when you understand
I know
The signs
It felt right
But I know
The signs

And wow doesn't it tell a story
Your life
Once glorified
Now I see hedonism for what it is
Muck

Not a meaningful life response
I broke away
To actually learn
To deal with life
Breathe in
Breathe out
The breath continues
Because of the grace of paradise

Came down to the line
Once or twice
Not a lesson I'd try to teach anyone
The lessons of carnality
It won't pick you up
But I will
Cause it's not that hard
Once you've been through it all

Returned to my heart's desire
Try to take it away
Sorry babe
I break easy but not about the same things
I guess everyone breaks at different crevices

I was searching for something else
Theres the sign
The locality denied
Life is in the center
Negate the truth
And suffer

I won't betray my life's desire
To live another life
I like this one

Brace for the challenge
That I should have been prepared for
If I was paying attention
To the signs

Honestly
There's a solution to every problem that exists
Just can't block it and fuck it
Up

Honestly
My heart desires to settle the score
Which feels impossible
So I set time on the wire
And wonder why
Karma is the consequence

I don't need to see this any differently

Setting time free
I forgive myself
Lose the baggage
I know I won't forget the feeling

I can look at you
I forgive everyone

Right in the eyes
I can look at you

Its useless to get screwed up
Just because
Reasons fulfill us
And that will just repeat
A slave to the cause
Of hedonism

I'm not like you
I didn't break down and cry
Except when he died
Cause that day
I didn't even want to do what I did
Yes this is a confession
I lied
The truth is carnal
Too carnal to tell
So I confess to God
And gain respite

And you know the feeling
When you know what your doing is wrong
And you do it anyway
Well maybe you don't
But I'm sure you notice
When your confused
And don't know which path to choose
Those are two completely different things

One is an action
The other is a mistake
So fuck the spoiled life of hedonism
It rots the fruit of our ambition

Closes the options
To killing yourself
Slowly

Our life is to short to color it with rotting fruit
Of what we thought we wanted
Only to later in life
Realize your regrets

I thank god
For my life

The Tone of Beauty

I wouldn't go through the trouble
To take another look
And then move on
All big things
Are open
Like the sun
For all of us

I wouldn't follow
You to anything
But safety

Another day
And we'll find ourselves
On the floor of our ambitions
Wondering what's its worth
If it's all for show
What do you do when it's over

I saw the pattern
In the dust of our becoming
All things are golden
In their true forms
Sealing our days
Into the future

He says bottoms up
Full of habits
As if life was a broadcast
To the broken
I'd prefer the habits of grace
Fulfillment in the glory
Of getting by
Keeping it to yourself
Makes you happy?
How could something outside you
Stop your guts from forming
 another sentence
The intention was inside

To embark on the journey
Was the broadcast
Complacent in sedation
Sedated in sleep
The sleep of judgement

The tone of beauty awakens
Enough fire for both of us
The fire crackles
We will never
       sleep

As if the gradation
The discrimination
Could help you find yourself
It's not a word
A verse
That I'm looking for
Searching
Searching

And as the fire of expression consumes
A paralyzed libido
 Sexual energy
Lights the sky
Not necessarily
Not becoming of sobriety
A class to itself

So petty to close the container
Without knowing
It's contents

And the light sparkles
In the eyes of the becoming
Not too curious
Because I was no longer interested
In your weakness
But I can feel the same
It goes over me
Like the plagues of egypt

I breathe easier
Knowing your there
What does that mean?

And I saw the vision on the wall
Too soon
To repeat these mistakes
Over again

Another chance?

We are still under the sun

Leave me alone? Leave me alone...

Something that's really real
Pulls at me
To express the glory of creation
I subdue
This passion
Pulling at the edges of me

So brace yourself

From Your Guts

To speak and not hold it inside
I won't stare at the consequence
 I'll remember how it was
Cause I got lost
In the beauty of the world
Couldn't see my mistakes
Now I don't wonder why
Cause I'm here

Our desire transforms into
Light
This is me
With the right
Intention
The world is yours
We hold it inside
And then explode
Does it matter?
Cause there's nowhere to hide
From opportunity
From possibility
I wouldn't want to be
Discontent
As if
What my heart wanted
Didn't matter

I notice,
Eventually I decide
To let go
And just do what I wanted
All along
Why bother trying to avoid
What I really wanted
All long
And the height
Of satisfaction
Betrays the carnality
Of vice
To satisfy is to live truly
As we want

So let it come out your mouth smoke
Or go down your throat
Either way I shouldn't be judging
You
Just here all the same
The choice of moderation
Is how we move

And I know the reason I forget
Is inside of me
It's real
As if this was a transition
And it won't repeat itself

I see the reasons
Stealing our time
Away from the indiscretion
Of bliss
Feeling a unity
Not to be separated
From the dictionary

And I say
My reason will never bother you
Because it comes and goes
With the sounds
Surrounding me
Yeah that's my reason
And the knowledge
Allows the self
To celebrate
With the equality
Of harmony

And then when I suffer
I remember
This isn't me
Couldn't be because I know
The bliss is what I am

So perhaps
It's time to pledge
Ourself to a discrimination
Our mind had made
As a tool
For this face to see
It's reflection
It's consequence of desire

A ripple of careless things
Teaches me to care
While I take my time
I'd take care of you
But baby your too far away

It's time
To smile in our own life
The completeness of our self
Lost in the judgement before
A fullness, in my self
Gathering the grace
Of unity
Nothing is too kind
To be temporary
As I release myself
From the darker
Trajectory
Create and be a part of
The unity

Trust is a lot deeper
Than your skin
The assumption that it would ever matter
I trust, these kinds of things
The kinds that remind me
Who I am
The kind that
Show me not to look in you
For something inside myself
 As the servant
Rules the kingdom
In his content heart
It's the power felt in the enlightenment
Of the transformation
Of sexual desire
Life, to enjoy this energy
Without the detraction
Of modified
Destruction

Creation comes from your guts
Finding something more meaningful
We often feel as if
It didn't matter
Where we've been

But instead I think
To remember
And wonder

Justify

And in the throes of spiritual
Ecstasy
We lose our self
And gain true spiritual
Authority
As one in bliss
Sees the truth

The one in bliss
Congratulates you
For your greeting
And urges you onward

No need for the varieties of sorrow
Differentiated misery
That call you to vice
While the scriptures
Of every religion
Call you out of this serene distaste
Called carnality
Yes we are ever so comfortable
In sin

Comfort to be
Is not comfort to see
The wisdom of virtue
When we are so stuck
In a lack of confession

So do confess my friend
As I do and shall
For we need not justify ourselves
With actions unnecessary

Do not act without the authority
Given to you
As an heir
Of the throne of our father

As your inheritance calls you to
Delight
In our creation

We need not construct walls
Between ourselves
As it makes the breathing difficult
Proper to tear the walls down
And know ourselves as we truly are
Brethren

Fear not for yourself
But fear the lord
As the one who keeps his
Commandments
Will be exalted above the nations
Of this world

As the nations rebel
And suffer to find repentance
They rebel against each other
Against the completeness
Of creation
That trace of unnecessary
Aggression
Is distasteful to our creation
Self-justification permits the continuation of mistakes
Weakness to not confess
And be set free of the carnal
The carnal separated us
Let it be no more
By your choice
To no longer linger outside of the
Kingdom
Acceptance of the throne of man
Acceptance of this deliverance
I beseech you
To not beseech in unkindness
But rather follow each action
With an intent of truth
Hold fast in an intent of purity
The sacrament of kindness
Follows the sacrament of love
Binding us to paradise

Seek not with doubt in your mind
Knowing the soul of god
Our soul finds repentance
In the soul of our father
Truly indescribable

And the one in bliss
Who can see the unity
Of paradise
Is in the faith
Of the resurrection

And I beseech you once again
I confess to have had exaggerated
Myself
I confess to having this sin
In my character
Not to beseech in vain
But rather to see the law fulfilled
In us
In our love

And we will reach the heights of our
Belief
Based on our works
We shall be judged

Too Happy For Secrets

Fooling myself
I'm not impressed
I won't fail
On the words
That hold me together
No needing an explanation

This plan isn't a last resort
Not a resort at all
Because I'm too happy
To depend
On secrets

All of this
Will be revealed
To those answering
The call

The sounds of another soul
Finding the light
All emanating
From
Our creator
His son is the light
Begotten from the spirit
And the spirit of life
Is the spirit of truth

Your eyes are too dim baby
From all your secrets
Do tell me
What's bothering you

I can hear the words coming from your mouth
And all I can believe
Is that your really saying them
Sometimes people change
I'd rather hope
This I can believe
This is an opportunity
Not to pretend
And I can't do anything
Without feeling the consequence
Except be it with the grace and mercy
Of the holiness
 So relax
Grace is never
Meant to be given up
For the temporary

And our creator sees straight through you
Don't even bother trying to hide
The emminence
Is found by those not hiding a thing
For to hide from the all knowing
Is a sin
And to open yourself up
Is to no longer run and hide
In your mind

Holy fire agression
Will destroy that which does not aid
And if your not helping
It will destroy you

So don't believe it
It will destroy you all the same
May the weather guide your soul
Into port
May the flames
Of the father
Burn you clean

May the wolves repent
For the eyes of fire
Will eat them alive

And In knowing that
In myself
I repent
I confess
To more than I believed
I had
So freedom is found
In our reconciliation

Be thrown away
In sin
And you will feel the tribulation

Not to wonder as you now know
To be in tribulation and to repent
Is to overcome
So may the fire find you well
Anoint your sorrow
And free you from your misery
That you cover up
Temporarily

As those in the holy fire
Need not of the authorship of man
But long for the word
Of our father
And need no covers
As the truth is bold
And the caress of strength
Needs not the ineptitude of lies
The sorrow of fools
To claim what they have no dominion over
To take from themself the life our creator
Gave them

And in knowing this I repent
Too happy for secrets
To take only what is my domain
Is virtue
And to lord over one's domain
Is no sorrow
Simply

With My Actions

You put your back into it
So we will give you a proper
Burial
When it's all over
 Maybe I'll even be there
And say goodbye

To forget about the filth
I've done
I abhor
And deviate from this repitition
Of weakness
Parading itself as strength
It felt so good
Oh it felt so good
But where am I now
In the consequence
Here now because
Of the grace and mercy
Of the above
So I say
Oh it felt good?
Yeah it felt so good...
Well I've been there
And it doesn't mean a thing
To me

Here we are in the consequence
Which is always what
We make of it
Isn't it?
Given dominion over the planet
And I think
How to use it
Given
Granted
And here
Peace of mind
In my status

So a wonderful mistake
Is better than a decent truth?
The smile on my face
For the things I've lost
Holy fire bliss
Transcends this
And I feel the wrath
Of creation
Makes me shutter
And not breathe with hate
Cause I'd rather be in the love
And that's my choice

You put your back into it
So I could find you well
And praise the becoming
Oh what are we becoming?
Because if you don't run away
From what you had
Then maybe you wouldn't be
On the edge

To lose yourself
To beg for the surface of things
When is the surface
More important than whats below
When is the dream
More important than the reality
The sparks between
Realities
The glory of humanity
Given up
Voluntarily
For a greater glory
That which begets
A hate for the darkness
Something easily avoided
By the weak
Yes that sounds good
Let us believe that

For our jealousy is not a bad thing
As we were made in the image
Of our creator
And his jealousy
Holds the world
Together
So be quiet
In his wrath
And stand straight
In his glory
You will make
It out
With more than a story
To receive the gift
Of creation
To give
Without exaggeration

To shed blood for a cause
Is to be imperfect
As he came
So shall we be
Don't repeat the folly
Of trying to do it alone
Perhaps it's a mystery

Anyway
I'll put my back into it
Tear apart my shame
Feel bad
For your glory
Good to hear the truth
Good to speak the truth
Be set on yourself
Not broken
In half

What is whole
In sin?
Perhaps our chance
Is together
With each other
In purity
Not in vanity
Looking for something
Not under our skin
It seems too easy
It seems all over for them
 Not to repent
And to live
Is to justify
Without him

Yeah it doesn't seem bad
Because of the temporary high
From the vanity
But the wrath
Outlives
Your life
And It feels good
To be clean

I clean my voice
I clean my mind
With my actions

Because everything we commit
Comes back
Again

And we live with everything
So I repent

Entreat

And we hold on
So as to not fade away
Without a message
What is a messenger?
It's so the emptiness
Doesn't take you away
Cause god gave me a heart
That can't be broken
And can't be taken away
By the ways
Of man

And as to keep
My sanity
I fill my head
With the words of our father

As heaven rejoices
Another sinner is saved
The peacemakers
Shall be given the kingdom
And everything
Is under the throne
Of the son
Of man

Pity to the unfortunate
Finding fortune in the temporary
Mercy to those playing with the darkness
Entreated by the light
To surrender
And gain the glory
Of our father

And similarly I entreat you
My brother
My sister
To forgive me
And remain with me
In Christ

Because once we admit
The desire to repent
We watch the glory of heaven
Unfold

And I'm not running
Away from the rapture
It wasn't given to us as a burden
Rather what it should be
What it is
Receiving my instructions
I will pause only to deliver them

With the entrance of the holy fire
Into our bodies
The deceit
Leaves us
And we are forever his
In spirit
In grace

Supplication to the spirit
Brings remorse
I'd choose remorse
Any day
Over the repitition
Of this selfish desire

Don't justify it my friend
And in this grace
We will be saved

Finding strength in the spirit
Without detraction
I feel apprehension towards
The wrath of our creator
To defy this naiveness which
Brought us to this
Situation

You see our creator's jealousy
Extinguishes
The fires of our distaste
And his wrath
Releases us from repeating our mistakes

Created to be in grace
Not to defile the spirit of his creation
So I accept the atonement that was the lamb
And pass the test

Wisdom of Reconciliation

This city burns in my blood
And I see through the seeming
Chaos
What's the point
Of living
Without the spirit
And the things I've heard
Shouldn't bother me
To speak
Another word
To you
Tell you how I feel

I should have reconciled myself
With you before
These words crowded my brain
And myself intwined in self-opinion
The space feels
Like its running out

To reconcile is to lose the ignorance
So I make a list
Of everything I can ask
To be forgiven of
And begin to go through
I confess
To that which I trust
And lose that which I do not want

The spirit brings me forward
And I ask
For deliverance
It seems my prayers were answered
But I'm short of breath
And my plans ran out

This city burns through my
Lack of opinion
Here and there
Is safety
I'll construct
Another goal
After this one
Worse to not even try
Than to fail the test

I want to find
The rhythm
Where it just flows
And you know what I mean
But these goals are not meant to be easy
These goals I construct
In my opinion relaxed
The desire is more pure
When you accept yourself
Cause God isn't here to give me a way out
Rather to feel the truth
To receive the gift of the spirit

The strength
I gained
Made me happy
To be
In your company
Call it easy
Call it anything

The understanding
I constructed my life around
Was an infringment
On the father
Hallow be his name
And I rejoice
In letting it
Go

Purity not vice
Pulls me in
To my next choice
To rely on strength
Gives me a voice
Of reconciliation
Of this past debt
 And I hope I use it well
To clear this face
To ease your burden
Brought in silence of cooperation
To the wisdom that needs no explanation
To the thought of cherishing creation
I was put here
To delight in this creation
To create
Away from the darkness
And my disobedience
Destroyed my intention
With purity
It is regained
And felt

My intent found
I step carefully
Into the situation
Where I failed before
I see this failure as an attempt
And am reconciled to myself
A step closer
To grace

Giving mercy to all
Not just your friends
I don't want to justify a thing
Except through my faith in him
When I realized
The bones
Of the justification
Of anything
 It set me free

Now these worries which crowd my brain
Make me seek the rhythm
Of catharsis
Of my destiny
To be truth is to not fool oneself
And in the search
Betray
I seek not to justify
My trespass
Rather to reconcile my heart
So we can rest in peace
And the rhythm
Takes me again
Like a mother hen
And it's chick
Taken under it's wing

The assault on human dignity
That my ignorance was
Realized as an obstacle
Overcome as an advantage
And the past bereavment for the fallen
Mourning I gain comfort
Fallen I find myself
And hoping
I trust

The Recognition of the Baptism

An unsettled mind
Find itself
Intwined
In it's environment
My anger
Destroys
That
And bestows grace
Upon the fallen
Who rest so cavalierly
In their status

This power
Pulses through my veins
Sober
Clean
And fine

Deep in the lord's
Glory
You can't take me out
And I am forever
His

And to the fallen
We speak
In tongues
Of the lord's passion
Attaining our status
Through him

So let me go
And see me fall
Away
To only find him
And myself

I won't watch this so unnecesarily
When there is a necessary thing
The conquest of death
The recognition of the baptism
This birth was the last for me
Make your choice
Succeed

Life is as life gives
And this life we lead
Away from the darkness
So make your choice
Succeed
There is no point to waiting now

I breathe in
I breathe out
You lose this betrayel
And I feel fine

There is no guilt
That needs to be indulged in
Like a candle
With no fuel
Your violent hands
Are covered with blood
And I can see my own
All over them

So fail to succeed
A folly
Succeed for life
Lost sickness
I was trapped in my misdeeds
And now clear
I see justice
Clarity
And faith

I could try to plan this through
But my guts tell me the truth
A superior force
Always defeats
An inferior force
No names
No traces of faithlessness
We abhor the arrogance

To find yourself
Takes an honesty
To believe in the resurrection
Is to make sense of the world
And now we rest
In the honesty
In our recognition
Of this love

To be accepted into the Church Triumphant
Is no joke
And I want you to hear yourself
Laughing
To hear how vain it sounds

Can we escape the truth?
Can we save face
Again?
To cavort in this place
Is no reward that I want
And here we are again
This folly hurts me
But I won't fall into indignation

Mercy, Mercy
This world falls without your grace
We sing your tale
In our love
We are saved

I turn to God
To become real
Because without this safety
And passion
All is lost
That momentary grief
Followed by a realization
Of this place
Why be lost?
Found in faith
Found in rebirth
All is found

Without this grace
I fell apart
Watch yourself
Succeed
Only to fall apart
At the end
As doubt is relieved
And belief received
The words of holy fire
Rain upon you

To sense this truth
Release from the fallible opinion
I swear
I testify
And this oath
Of success
I hope
Finds you well

Pray for the fallen
So they can rise with us
And this holy fire
Anoints our passion
For them
For him

So I Can Be At Peace

The illusion held us at bay
Till we grew up
In the love of our creator
To see

So don't bury your head
In the sand of time
In a sad fate
Your generation is just enough
Isn't it always about?
The past...

So turn yourself
Towards the truth
Another thing released

Good luck
Or no indigination
And the trace of greed
Is released
Otherwise known
As proof
Life is evidence
Of truth
And truth
Is evidence enough
So don't repeat
Just to break down
And cry
Like a sinner dies
In their folly
Just to live again
In the mercy of their creator
When they submit
To life

Enough to the folly
Of not taking the right path
Due to attachment to the things
You don't even like
Not doing what you want
Was never as easier
As the escape of fate
Relief from the truth
Is death to you

Atonement simply put
Life can be easy
Serene
And calm
Without greed
Without the unnecessary waste
Of spreading your seed
Too far
Makes you too far gone
Calm yourself down

Looking God in the face
Won't stop the harshness?
Maybe
It will change the attitude
Towards the world
Relief from an aversion
Serene
A heart without getting carried away
With sensuality

Without self-limitations
How can you find yourself?
Because you deserve better don't you
The cosmic sustinence
Is everywhere you look
In everything you do
I limit myself
So I can be at peace
This can't last

True spiritual gain
Comes from experience
Not an empty wallet
How will you carry yourself?
With respect
With an addiction
To lust
You felt it for a moment
And forgot how good
It felt without
It
Called the forgetfullness
Of your eternal position
Your eternal self
Truth, life, love
The law is life
And to this life
You serve

So I can be at peace
I serve
God
Without doubt
Is the outcome

Tried to See

The miracle was the life we led
Without an aim
We descend
Like vultures
And a host
On the things we desire
Now my conscience is clear

The miracle was the life we led
Without indignation I submit
To the laws of life
The trace of selfish satisfaction
Follows me
As I walk through this place
To be rid of this
I speak
Of salvation

While the trace remains
As the mind dwells
On what it takes

The burning anointment
Of holy fire
The warmth of purity
Mother Mary
These things bring me to myself

The miracle wants us to listen
Have mercy
The god I tried to see
Was the god in front of me

Inseparable

If I didn't return
To what I knew
Then where would
I go

It takes its place
The consequence
And I take my place
To be steady
Beyond

A sensation brings the mind
To a realization
Brought deeper by faith

So come and join us
If my intentions were pure
I wouldn't be here
Anymore

But now I drift
Into purity

Too many memories
Of not being honest
Brings a guilt
Of distance

And I don't want to be separated
Told I am inseparable
I forget
And suffer

Now together
I am happy

The ties that bind us
Hold us together
So don't go through
Cutting them
Lost we die
In faith we live

How could you find yourself?
Without a sense of time
Kala
Guiding
As science speculates
On its dimensions
Like a person
With a tie
That binds
Them close to themselves

Time is infinite
I always existed
And will always exist

Doubt
At these words
Is a function
Of the energy
And the mind

Another emotion
The realization that this is real
The faith that binds us
To a higher cause
Can't be given up
Without a choice

And as we undress ourselves
Just to exist
The attraction just brought us beyond
The suffering
And only because of it's
Intention
Temporarily

Closer and closer
The intention
Becomes clear
It's just too amazing
To not follow from a conscious choice
Salvation

And how could a choice
Be beyond reasoning?
When the mind is tied up so clearly
In its memories

When the choice is based on life
It begets life
When its based on faith
The result is clear
To those who've seen
The truth

And the voice of speculation
Is a temporary thing
Bringing the temporary
As a result

And so I won't drift
Too far
I was given a mind to exist
And a will to bind myself
To the lessons of consequence
As the purity of the soul
Is slowly released
And eternal consequence
Resolved
As reward
From that which created
All of this

Fickle

Fear I have forgotten myself
In the sense of something
And my service
Now remembered
To hope I've lost
The memories which made me
Selfish
Defeated
In error of truth
The spirit of the law
Is the law
As the mind grasps the letters
Of the law
A confusion
Is to state the letter
As an opinion
With only the authority
Of failure
Failure is the pursuit of virtue
Thinking one has found it
In comparison to the people
Yet your creator
Gave you consideration
And the life
To realize it inside
In the cosmic experience
In this age we find ourselves
Life is the law
And eternal life
In regard
Our success

Namaste
We are equals
And when we release our souls bonds
Of melancholy
Of traded opinions
And find the bonds of heaven
To be ultimate
No longer will we humor ourselves
With what heaven forbids
We want it now
But it's best to wait
And even in our fickle souls
We know this

But yet this heart
Compares these words in our minds
And in my intuition
Is a wonder of paradise

Our Cause

Well hello freedom,

I say hello, and as I sigh
I persist, rather than say
goodbye

To find compassion
I began in start
Knowing perhaps?

 What follows
Depends on where it came from
To me

But then again
To analyze would be perhaps
to discover
in earnest
not to decide
the fate
of another person
or change their mind

So I discover
No reason for vindictiveness
No reason to justify
My hand in the
beast of greed
sensuality
for I have been involved
and to say otherwise
would be dishonest to myself
the reason being
wishful thinking
a weakness
that for which our god
puts us in illusion
some of us
treading on others
feet
all for a reason,
or rather a justification
What was the reason?
other have given up reason
for the sensual gains
of this flesh
for which they will be devoured in turn
by their own karma

So a reason besides compassion
is a reason at all?

Wholeness from the beauty
Yes I sat there
feeling cosmic bliss
and I felt your
innerness
and while I may have been
undistracted in my bliss
I cared

The reason is intent
and the discovery of this
a genuine right
without an equality of people
where is your mind
lost to the divine moment
given to us
together we exist
and separate we think
ourselves
to dwell

thinking of oneself to be
is to be thinking
in the moment of wonder
of gods glory
we think to dwell in separation?

and our voices give so many
excuses
strength and virtue
our cause
because those who fall away
have simply forgotten the cause
and if even for a brief moment I do
forgive me
my sanity
in the hands of forgiveness
and in my heart
of acceptance

promise me
and follow through
and not just because I want you to
there's a deeper reason

life, god, law, truth

for that only to please others

is a worldy need for affection

one in which our culture is steeped

in carnality

one for which I forgive

for it is of commiseration

that we give each other

weakness

forgive me for my past transgressions

for I am forever yours

  freedom
I cherish this peace
and in following compassion
finally nothing to prove

A Lack of Faith

and they no longer
glorify
the words of the lost
finding in it some semblance
of fruition
of emotion
of condensation
of their doubts

the belief
giving rise to
what follows
from it
as evidence
as to where it came from
the reality being
an awareness
inside your being
once you became
what you wished in time
it was only a matter of time
before what you wished
had changed

serving the all powerful
without the means of recollection
of false self
within reach
and the despair felt
is only an indulgence
of the mind
a lack of faith

a heavenly authority
in your core
replacing the semblance of life
doubt
and its sign
worry

can a person put away
their mind
surrender
their will
as to feel life
from their creator
and be given the healing
of paradise
in their seat
certainly
having felt the same
I surrendered

and in this seat
the juxtaposition
of a quarreling mind
with its neighbors
and itself
fundamentalism
and the rest
ends
as faith is gained
but truth faith
is unwavering
cosmic consciousness
without a price
as the message is revealed
and the price
redeemed

these negative emotions
are a separation
from god
from life
from its creation
and the fulfilling creative element
in yourself

the doubt will return
to your wavering mind
as an imperfect soul
quests after the same
but call out to god
feeling the love
and you will pass your test
feeling the love
you will be redeemed

Experience

descending back to the world
the cravings return
nirvana now in the background
no longer all that is

craving is part
of the illusion
god conscious
I smiled
now I part ways
with what I thought
till the nectar returns

knowing the difference
I was released
only to return
without a part of the darkness
only a fullness
which before
rarely existed
and a craving

blinking doesn't even feel
the same
as I saw my inner and outer
become the same

yet
I know why the craving remains
as the remnaints
of a passionate
life
decease
and the love
of god
saves

no longer an idea
in my mind
an experience
I had

The Court of the Lord

the hesitation
was with me
and now I think
the choice to persist
was one not made in vain
I hope
salvation remains
a blessed reward
as the hopeless continue
to sing
without the blessings
of the lords of hosts
the music is that of lust
a connection
to the place of abandonment
we've all been there once or twice
a teaching so high
its hard to give

you thought how you felt
and how you felt
was not a mystery
without the blessings
of the host of tongues
you speak on a whim
without knowledge
of a game
we are lost to ourselves

so I dance
and listen
the conflict surrenders to me
because it was my heart

why are your eyes
still dreaming?
the question
the hesitation
an understanding
given

it could be deeper for you
but to some
deep hurts
like a cut
so to you
I offer
a flower
and a return to the game
my blessing remains
in the guidance
of my destiny

some look me in the eyes
while others are too busy
to even lie
the lie hurts
your body
that your soul is encased in

when this is over
realization
you hold up high
the idols of the past
without knowing
where you are
it's this knowledge
that brings true persistence

so say it
and repeat it
twice
the orgasm left a mark
on your brain
that you cant see
without the wine
of the spirit

I suppose
the mystery was created by
your brain
as the words poured out of the others
so close to you
right into your ears

without faith
life is hard
because your trial
is a prosecution
rather than a defense

I am in the court of the lord
the court of love
not lost
but one day
they may make a movie
about being reborn
and then you may believe

Consequence

Caring about someone
Is more than just
Being affectionate

It's setting them free
And if they'd prefer slavery
Can you be sure
They are in the honesty?

Tired of slavery
If you cling to each other
The age of quarrels
I was scared of the reaper
I admit
Because of the quarrels
Of my past
It is said
To die with your accounts in order
Is to be free
And to live nobly
We cannot leave our brothers
In our debt
Forgiven
We move on
Another vehicle
For the future

Our taste
Our grace
There's a lot more
Beauty in the world
With an open heart

It seems like you were wronged
So we repeat the cycle
Leading to our defeat
A cycle of longing
A cycle of hate

But then again
You must express yourself
Or you die
Lost in the cold
Of what was set aside
For you
By god

And when everything goes wrong
Know that you have the strength
To succumb to the virtue
Of nonviolence
A righteousness
Betrayed in every hamburger
Every chicken salad
You eat for your health
Not knowing
Your consuming
Ignorance
And hate
Gluttony
A vice
All vice is payed for
With suffering
As the ignorance
Bites your form
And your self
Wonders why

Listen to the thousand of years
Before you
Those who didn't
Became another form
Of bloodshed

Perhaps you can run
From the reaper
Into another life
Of fantasy
Where things just happen
And you aren't burdened
Or liberated
With consequence

A fantasy of childhood
Where what makes sense to you
Is fine
And that is all
You see

You see
It's a fantasy

Release

I was lost
In you mother
In maya
Looking for a way out
Nirvana saved me the trouble
Came
Karma is perfect
Just not linear in time
That's all
Nirvana is the cause
Of the universe
Maha Visnus breath
The union of the higher of Visnu with the lower nature of Visnu
without which desire
and maya are the separate aspects
(disunion)

Nirvana teaches
Can you learn?
Without the light of jyoti
We are lost
In darkness

Examing ourselves
For holes
Will not help?
May nirvana bless you
In its active form
quelling fear
the duality of the lost mind

lost and forgetful
played with by mother
in the mean time
 Shakti
the realized form
as Radha

is your release

(with blessings)

Matters

Dark like the shade
The earth doesn't
Miss the sun
I'm done
I've heard all about
Who you miss
The thread
Of disgrace
Runs through
The clothes of the weak

Serving a selfish intuition
Rather than the duty
Of the above
The heavens curse
Your distaste
As the judgement
Pierces your name
Another identity
Assumed
With emotions
Intact

I don't wonder
Because I know my fate

As the lost struggle
For a temporary
Upheavel
Of time
Perhaps something
They desire
It's worth nothing

Say it's any differently
I'll watch you fade away
Not with my eyes
Rather with the sight
Given to me
By god
Transcending
The boundaries
Of time

Once I realized
My mood was just a chemical
In my brain
The physical
While not to be dismissed
I call it worthless
As the birds migrate
Without my opinion
Make your own
And drift
 In this place
Full of wonder
And confusion

I need not the ways of the wicked
For they think they are strong
And I see weakness
In the howl
Of the wolf
And disgrace
In the attitude
Of the fight

What was the reason?
There is only one reason to do anything
Transcending this place
With gods name
In my mind

A mind I'll use to face
The passion indebted to me
By my past reactions
My intent

Seeking me to serve the temporary
That will last
For at the most
One hot lifetime

 An ignorance once had
Delivered by time
You were genuine
So it was just a matter of time

Liberation isn't
Worth anything you've heard
Once felt
It colored my world

Sure I dissolved my mind
Before
But that no longer matters
As I served nothing
And now I serve a name
I cannot define
Without the word
Eternal
Without the quality
Of bliss
Without leaving
This place

Of the rest

It seems so silly
Like a waste
Of what I knew
On myself
Words categories
Strewn along this path
The upheaval of the times
Lost indefinition
At least your tummy
Has something in it
Thinking can't stop
The march of time
Or color the gem
Of your identity
Any differently
So behold
The wealth was a blessing
From above
And I didn't even begin to bother
To care
Simple in my ignorance
Remembering that which
Suited my tastes
It's the passion
We feel
Concern for the resolution
Of your doubts
On the future
Of your heart

The upheavel of the times
Mirror
The passion
Leading your soul
But what gives your life meaning
Is it their voices in your ear?
Whose hand are you holding now?
We beget
And we begin
To understand
As the spirit shines
We fall away
Unnecessary
This body
I found you there
Satisfied
And now I shake
In the cold
Knowing how
Unnecessary
This body is

My mood is like
The surface of the water
Bubbles of pain
And pleasure
Rising through
I. Care not
Divine love
Has brought
Me
Past the depths
We have defined
Enough!
The voice declares
In the rumble of time
Enough to the lost souls
As those who have already found their way home
Heard my voice
Long ago
Enough!
An end to the decisions of the blind
The end of this comes
At the wish
Of eternity
As those in eternal rest
Remain unaffected
And the unfathomed rest
Perish
To be reborn
In a fashion
Not unlike
Reincarnation

A decision not unlike
Dieing to live
Your memory
A host to the times
Let us forget then
The perishing confusing
Dieing in distaste
Another measure
Of ourselves
That we can break
As those we hold close
Dissolve
With times reunion
With fate
Those whose actions
No longer follow the words of this place
Are secure
The ropes of materiality
No longer bind
Like the memories of others opinions
Lost to the strength
Of tolerance
Insight into yourself
And the destruction
Of the rest

I Welcome

In the sea of emotion
It only makes sense
To you

I might just be waiting
for you
     this time

In between
Absorbing the excellence
Which surrounds me

It really shows
Everything seeks completion
In its form
In its destiny

In this sea of emotions

It only made sense to you

And at the time
I made it mine
Not with my personality
My spirit
coincided

But the sea of emotion
I can sense past
Ordinarily

It colors
The world
Brings generations values
To mind

To some
The experience
Cosmic bliss
comes to us

No longer in wonder
in dismay
in the ordinary

To serve not for benefit
but rather
for the unknown
unexplained
devotion
felt in your soul
bringing transcendence
and this love

I destroy my sentimental
Self
and in this
Am no longer lost
In the sea

To devote yourself
As a soul
to the soul of god
supreme bliss

But lost
They cannot feel
but the waves of the sea

Its superficial
Temporary
I will be there
for the destruction
of this

And in the ectsacy of the destruction of the temporary
is the bliss of the eternal
know this
every moment
you think this changing
is any different than destruction?
without fear,
I see it as the same
change is just a human word
we made
while fearing the destruction
so I smile
supreme bliss
because I cannot be destroyed
and I welcome the destruction of anything that can
because that just means
its temporary

Meaning

When a man finds
What completes himself
That stirs the spirit
The choice must be made
Complete yourself
Tired Soul
What is fame
I will fade into obscurity
The march of time
Upon the shoulders of what gave my life meaning
Rests my satisfaction
A peace of mind
Happiness

Without that. Which stirs my spirit
I am lifeless
And dull
Just not ready to meet my maker
So I persist
And in this mess
Find meaning
It stirs inside me
I can't control it
I give it names
But it gives me form
From the lifeless
I am transformed
Art
The divine
I make no separation
It makes me what I am
I feel it inside us
Drawing me forward
Towards my destiny
A perfection as of yet unnamed
In the heart of those completed
Without apprehension
We find perfection
In doing exactly what we were meant to

And Calm

peace as that which creates
sustains
emotions contained
as that dawning of emotion
releases us from control
the higher spiritual love
saving us from a game

Into our eyes
we see a hue
of a following of negativity
a dimmer life
brightens
between the immortal breaks
of lost souls
upon the meeting of salvation
we meet and decide
our fate

Peace
As those who remain
guard the tragedy
And the grace
Of the master
rises us burns us away
those connections
burned away
with the flame of yoga
the authentic strain
of our mind
as we look around
and see
those things bothering us
that which no longer gives us the satisfaction
of the lost souls
stumbling over the words
to describe a place
of urgency
the nameless
calling us not by name
but by nature
and the grace of the master
burns us away

to be vindictive
a forgotten goal
of the highest
matter not to distract
spirit
not to forget
reaching for rapture
the aspirant is given answers
in hues of defeat
of negative pursuits
anyone clinging to these pursuits
cannot be saved
until letting go
so let those negative thoughts
dissolve
rendering us in part
more alive
dead to the insufficient mind
alive in spirit
and calm
peace as that which is contained
is released
and the steadiness
can no longer
be betrayed

Silence

All rise
In the presence
That the angels sing for

And our enemies inside
If we go over them
We defeat ourself

To be full of fear
And act
Is this the pursuit
Of mystery?

And as we know ourselves
The touch of others
Pleases our senses
As they are blessed
They find peace

To find peace
And remain so
Beyond the bite
Of the darkness

The peace lies beyond
The negativity
That which we speak of
And exists in our weakness
With subtle tones

Our weakness takes on such a voyage
One made for forgetting

The opportunities I take
Lie light on my shoulders
No longer being crushed

And as the angels sing
They touch those who can hear
Of the message of peace
Turning their wants
And their dreams
Into the silence of satisfaction
Could we ever understand?

Peace

The entertainment
We saw with our own eyes
They said blush
Calling a name existing only in the mind
Oh where do I draw
The lines between myself
And everything else

A question easier to answer
When your mind
Doesn't die in weakness

While some die
In the faces of the familiar
Other's choose and perhaps
Suffer in the strange

The bliss
Found in so many days
Teaches

And we still unwind
Our fate, like twine
Coming together
And separating

It's like the blood
Shed for a cause
Except without the cause
Don't say
It's called history
Cause some of us
Haven't even begun to feel the peace
I saw it in a dream
That this was real
It came upon me
And smothered my everything
Peace not as the sleeping
Hear themselves in joy
Peace as the stranger
Finds home
Peace

Sanity

Uncertainty
Spins out of control
       Don't let go

What doesn't need to be shown
Glows through our skin
 showing more than our doubt

If feeling the doubt, is the only trouble
To be felt
A success to the pity
Of a renaissance

A success to the lost time
Indecision
bites at our.... toes
JUMP

We could never jump
high enough
gravity
marks this place
with a pattern
of success,
and failure,
of anything in between

It left it's marks
On the pattern of your bones
As they remain
Past the exhalation
Of your breath

And the wind
Rustles the leaves
Calling you
To your destiny

 The power of honest expression
To bow in the presence
Of your god
A humble stroke
Defeats the glory
Of lost time

To our sense,
That some part of this is wrong
I always wanted
It seems to drift
Away
Sometimes when I need it

I see the power
And not to envy that which
Exists
Relief
Paradise is the promise
And in keeping
My side of the promise
I remain

Could your shelter?
Be any better
 The ugly truth
Was never as bad
As the easy lies
That were spelt
With my eyes
Sentences filled with myself

Never to be forgotten
Sweet sanity fills these words with meaning
As the audience
Creates the event

Never to be forgotten
As I forget my beginning
And cross the t's of my
Ending

The words I spell
Are my intention
As the meaning drifts
Through minds
Consuming themselves with the passions
Of the body
They inhabit

It colors the experience
And changes the depth
So silence
Never existed
And that which I felt
Was an ignorance

Release
In the error of my ways
Confrontation
Is better
Than the occurrence
Of doubt
The enemy which waits
Inside
To be conquered
By purity

Too solid, to be putty?

The essential qualities of life
Bring us together
Like the hand of god

In our stare
As you stare through these words
With a life like language
Or a language like life?

In our safety
The faithful comment
On the deceit
Those who hurt themselves
Have left a trail
To the abyss
If you could see sin
You could see this from space
Without our righteousness
We are the shadow of ourself
I see
Still trying to pull it together
To be the perceived one
What is it about being human
That brings the animals above to show us
How to be ourselves
In a trajectory modeled by science
And a pose trained by the television
To those who dream of a day
Where a cut wrist
Is just a faux pax
Your empty
So you fill yourself with dreams
Of the faithful
We say
Commendations to those
Who ask for forgiveness
This could be the moment,
Where you actually feel something
Some say things with their words
Coming from a knowledge based in a virtueless model
A model bringing us together
Without a Why
How could you find yourself
Without the Why
Without the force of righteousness
You thought power was in being
A Man?
If so why the calm comfort of the snow
The peril of emptiness
Or of boredom's sweet caress
You take away the part
I find nothing in nothing's place
Right where I left it
Before something began
A comparison
A birth of the spirit of indulgence
quite befitting of childhood
those who give in
have trouble finding their way out
Then the essential qualities of life
Bring us together
They cannot be separated, without death
But then another sees the light in the eyes
of death
a light we tell ourselves about
in strokes of glory
we forget
the glory like a drug
be taught by the pure
you can see it with your eyes
humbled in respect of the transcience of glory
of what is mentioned, in the history books, reminds me of a word
Should, I, Should, They
What should they do?
a view like that gives me vertigo
an occurance of guidance saved those who came before
and to submit to this guidance
in love
I will

My life like putty
in the hands
The hands of god

The Context

It's the context
That kills me
As my mind
Gives me the strength
Of slow solidarity
We can't be separated
From the moment
And how the context
Kills me
Is in the respect
Of the rush
Of life
Not to be confused
With the intoxication
Of lost souls
When I found myself truthful in
My own head
I no longer
Came to the conclusions of death
My mind an artist of it's own demise
I'd rather struggle on a full stomach
And that's why
The context kills me
I can't explain it
But that doesn't make it a mystery
In life we persist to die
And in death we persist to live
So be secured
In the faith of consistency
The faith comes with a presence
Of being safe
The context
Of all of this kills me
In my innocence
I can't take it all
I can't cry for the same reason
Knowing the divine
I wanted to capture
The essence
Perhaps
You can see it in the majesty
Of modesty
The essential qualities of life
Coming with satisfaction
How I have been bored
How I have seen my own form
How I have come to respect
The harmony
Of thoughtful modesty
It goes beyond
Like the mystery

Hero

Can you hear
If your shining?
The words floating above
The skyline
Like the promises
Of waking up
When we sleep in dreams
We dream of sleep
To the essential nature
Of life
We dream
Not used to taking
A stand
In our responsibility
In the relevance
Of our life
The relevance
Of the promises we found
So sweet
The nature of indulgence
Impinging on the future
As we pay the price
We are made worthy
Of the next guest
We have made of this place
At the end
Of our umbilical
Bliss
Was the scream of life
The pain of occurrence
And as some dwell in the scream
Others dream of the bliss
Finding it
At the end of their voices
In others ears
Seeing for a moment
The point of living

To our senses
We are a guest
So be one
Of modesty
Asking before
We submit to the vice
Of mixed assumptions
I'm sorry
It was hard
As we caved in
Earned the desire
To be free
In our cages
Of insecurity
To the mighty
Surrender
Goes the reward
Of safety
As persistence
In the turning
Of our gifts
Into the sky
Of difficulty
Brings us to a new place
Looking around
For the desire we felt
In the moment lost
To times betrayal
Our negativity.

Dilute the senses
Past our inspection
Of ourselves
Past the uncertainty
The spirit prevails
In the tears of
Open memories
A voice of tolerance
Sounding inside
Our minds
Tolerance for what we felt
As we rediscover
What we mean
Continually
Again
Only to forget
Is this forgotten
Myth
A mystery
As eyes seek what's inside
No longer stuck to the appearance
Of lust
The ripples on the water
Are as beautiful
As your smile
And some can smile
And cry
All in the same breath
While others take turns
Or perhaps
Forget
Remembering sides
To the story
Came as close
As we could
To the mystery

Selfish pain
Seeks an end
To the means
Of discovery
The senses we persist
Allowing us to suffer
And perhaps
To feel bliss
The mutual expression
Of our souls
Through the miracle
Of the defeat
Of our vehicles
Of doubt
The hero of bliss
Saving us
In our nourishment

Something Greater

You can have the whole wide world
The best part was always in your eyes
All the walls
We built for falling
It's all in order
Given way to the power
Of insecurity
Frozen
We drift away
So much easier to put it away
Facing the complications
Is a clever game
Of dependency
As I said
We built the walls
For falling
And now my hands rust
In the power
Of the dust
left behind by our feelings
For each other
And now the excellence surrounds
As the negative consequences die
Leaving us in our distinction
A puddle of our own opinions
Left still believing
How can we drift
Without knowing where we are going
Drifting like a puddle
All the negative emotions
Like a parody
Of the power
That speaks to me
Makes it difficult
For me to sleep
Im lost like the moon
In the glow of something greater

Who Persist

The jaded sun
Sees itself in our eyes
While the rest of us
Survive
Even the birds have security
In their numbers
Who answers the call of loneliness
Some don't hear the call
At all
Safety in numbers means nothing
When your lonely inside
And while the birds peck for food
And some don't answer the call
The beauty is the silence inside
Our wants deafening our ears
Still I want

We sleep in the jaded sun
Afraid of our own victory
Until the time is right
And the tears have been shed
when there's no blood
Being shed
The victory goes to those
Who persist
So let the sun be jaded
For it can see the suffering
The pain reminds me
Of the error of my ways
And that comes from a place
Of security

swollen pride dies, in shards of attachment

The gentle disgrace
Of wonder
Belittles none
As our days
Speak for themselves

Truth
Full of itself
Is all around
Ready to be traded
For personal
Glory

It's not a sad
Story
But it brings tears
To my eyes
Because
Of what it meant
To us
And some
Sacrifice
As others
Resent
The choices they made

True glory
Is not in any of us
I won't repeat the story
This wasn't given to me

Because to those who sacrifice
See what's happening around them
their reasoning
Continues
Outside the boundaries
Of what is thought about them
Of what we know so well

We can't avoid our destiny
And that doubt
Will only delay
The game
Well it feels like
That's about as delayed as
Could be
Trite
The surrounding
Fills me
As I worry
About the wonder
The gentle disgrace
Of lost inhibitions
Something we couldn't keep
Now I feel light
Because I let go
The circle of life completes
Itself
Can you see
Us hanging onto
Judgements
While our minds
Decay
Like all our creations
Suspended
As the wonders of the world
Are no longer
Worried about
Happiness
Brings it's own rewards
Stuck in the mud
Of delusions
About the game
About all of us
Welcome to
The dream
The dream survives
On seeds of wonder
Traces of regret
Oh the subtlety
Of blowing smoke
To the heavens
Popularly known
As an opinion
Held in a mind
Beset by it's options
And then it happens by itself
A path of choices
Given way
To a spectacle
Of personal glory
We found a story of our own
Separating us
By our swelled
Heads
Passing by
The faith
Of openness
To the wonder
So it doesnt become
A simple lie
A wasted life
Precious to itself
And no one else
That's the price we pay
For the swollen pride
Like a pregnancy
Of attachment
A swelling defeated only by the birth
Of satisfaction
Lighting our world
With the open
Mistakes we made
So be it
I say

Smiles

Beauty
It's what you see
When your mind
Is undistracted
By the currency
Looking at these things
Smiles
The universal currency
Of emotion
With the beauty of the world
Slipping through the cracks
Defeating the negativity
I was born crying
And you calmed me down
And now slipping through the cracks
Is the beauty of the world
I'm no longer amazed
Standing as the world moves around me
Found the beauty again
I thought I had lost it
In my intent
To be real
I conquered the envy
No longer do I linger
In a place of urgency
For all I did
As an escape
Brought about
An envy I couldn't defeat
Without the celestial current
Of spiritual love
That which no longer brings attachment
To what I have
Making me wonder at what I don't
Victory to the faithful
Courage to the lovers of the divine
Ambivalence to those intent upon the envious nature
Of judgement
Unfiltered by arrogance
Are those
Truly existing beyond the veins of troubled minds
And those troubled by life
Finding recourse in each other
Will paint their days
As those beyond the judgement
The reckoning
Are lifted beyond the throes
Of death
The vibration of negativity
Which found our souls
So imperfect
And here we are
Troubled minds
Another lesson to learn
Till perfection
Out of love
Is found
And no longer do our voices play with the negative
As we gasp for air
At our own cost
Showing every imperfection of our own
With our judgements of others
Unveiled to that mind seeing
The inner light sparkling

Kingdoms of Roads

Keep to your choices
Those are the choices you made
Made you what you became
And trying to change the past
Never happened
Like the unicorn
Maybe in another place
Separated
But we don't speak
Of the separated
The union of what we want
And what we are
I can see the beauty of the world
It dribbles down
From above
The hope that despite the warning
Of hasty beginnings
I won't try to change the past
Say this that I did was bad
I'll keep to my choices
And defend the future
From becoming
Another part of the illusion
And not turn on myself
In service of a sympathy
Fueled by dissatisfaction
Please be pleased
Make my life
The cloud that parts
The skies of man
Fit for falling
Down over yourself
To pander the illusion
Of wasted time
Because I was well intentioned
And will be judged perfectly
By my maker
My cause was just
Better to do the wrong thing
For the right reasons
Than the opposite
Doing the right thing
For the wrong reasons
Yes that's a warning
For those
Who are taken
By the aesthetics
Of violence
The cause of blood
And turn their face towards the other
Full of lust
Lust for another time
Lust for what they they thought they had become
Look for what surrounds you
Finding release
In the surrounding
Everything
Strength is taught
Strength isn't bought
With opinions
The wind moves the sky
Like power moves the tide
Of mankind
Coalescing
Collecting
In pools of cities
And kingdoms of roads
Moving again
Until the last thing
We do
And then we move
In a completely new direction
A direction I pause at
And wonder
I gave myself for a cause
Unknown
And should I die
Know that it wasn't a mistake

Letting Go

False like a ghost
A ghost whispering
Your destiny
I feel it
And I took it
For granted
The ghost whispers
But I don't hear it
Intent on my day
On what seems real to me
I say the ghost is false
The ghost of another day
Calling my name
And making me wonder
What could of been
I didn't choose my destiny
But I chose
What does it mean
To choose an ending
To something
You love
Because god told you so
Letting go
Was never meant to last forever
But when it comes back
What will you say
That it's the ghost of another day
Strength in my chest
I grow older
And my smile shines
What I chose
What am I missing
I ask myself
I don't miss you
So I don't say a thing
False I try not
And I don't know
My destiny
But what I know
Is I shouldn't give in
To the false
Urge to make this easy on myself
It would be so easy wouldn't it
And leave me empty
Another filled lost soul
With vengeance in my mind
My wits no longer form sentences
Starting to shine like my smile
Shine like an empty ocean
With a drop left
Reflecting the sun
While the shadow
Of other days
Creeps in
Bringing us back
To the times when
The ocean was full
And we were empty
Looking for a way to be
Ourselves
Now the ocean is empty
And that one last drop calls my name
And makes me wonder
While it reflects my world
That's my world
May the ghost that whispers
The mystery of your past
The mystery of your doubt
The mystery of your destiny
Be well received
I called mine false
For too long
Ignoring when I fell
Looking up to the sky
When I got up
It always fall apart
Before it comes together
Again
And if that's a mystery
Welcome back
To the ghost

Wonder Why: Familiarity

A stroke of familiarity
With heavens brush
I lose myself in the crowd
Nothing special
I saw the waste
In our souls
As our guts regurgitate
Apologies
A sweet melody
Of deceit
Trading today
For tomorrow
And as I look inside them
There exists
A stroke of familiarity
As if a painting of heaven
Spoke to me
In volumes of intuition
Similar to the inspiration
Similar
And if I look close enough
The familiarity begins again
As if I couldn't get enough
The first time around
So I let heaven
Paint the picture
With whatever brush
Is preferred
Life is a high stakes game
To some
As others are too frail
To play with anything
But our hearts
Chasing afterthe skies
Seen on sunny days
Repeating the message
As i regurgitate
The sweet melody
Received in honesty
The honesty
Not to be traded away
Even if we are in agony
For we rest in each other
Let this rest continue
Begettiing hope
And perhaps: Surrender
And embrace the dieing day
We stop and listen
To the words
And whats below
Wondering
Which is more important
You were in a special place to me
A place reserved
Out of trust
A trust that exists no more
And in my reserve
I separate my love
And find myself
In the sweet nothingness
Of mankind
What am I?
Is a phrase we ask ourselves
When the daylight
Is separated from the sunny day
Then we wonder why
The question persisting
Till we get what we wanted
Then the questions disappear
To reappear
Another day
It sounds sincere
And perhaps beautiful
To wonder why
When we deserve the world
To wonder why
When the picture is complete
For all we can see
For all we can doubt
Is just the image
Of the divine

Resilience

The joy of the world
An ambition
That can't be controlled
Still we strive

Out of style
The reticence
A fountain of disbelief
Fed with the waters
Of waste
So look to the beautiful
And offer some grace
As if you were any more lost

An apology
For the distraction
From virtue
That was my mind
Before the surrender

Based in desire
Our body impure
Enough because
Our vanity
Will never
Stop time

The pursuit
Of virtue
Clean
The wildness of our youth
As the future
Dawns on our shoulders
With a clear mind
And clean sight
We are offered
An end to our ambition
Of passion
What will be planted in it's place
A steady seed
Conquering the disbelief
Of false hope
An indication
Of being at the end of our rope
Battered by the ocean of life
Looking for the port of salvation
We wipe the sleep from our eyes
The armored ones
Armored by the words of their god
Speak volumes
Of persistence
Of the resilience
A friend of the body and mind
Inhabited
An ethology of soul
Transmutes the flesh
Into spirit
At the time of death

The Days

Life's a blessing to the blessed
And a curse to those cursed
To those in between
It's still a test
Oh the wicked air
Of vice
Disturbs that righteous mind
Still remembering it's tests
While those in steady bliss
Remain undiscerned
And undisturbed
In the grandeur of our lust
We don't stumble when we should
As the grandeur
Is not in the individual
But in the civilization as a whole
I feel the lust
But it does no duty
To me
Seek not an image of yourself
For you are the image of god
Aspiring to this
Be still my mind
Abandon all vice
Or the days
Will leave you empty

the heart of man

our hearts were made
for each other
our hearts were made
without conceit
a stain on the stainless

missing

our hearts were made
without device
which we learned
stimulated
received
the environment

missing
the other
that which we absorb
and change
no destruction

and as our actions
belie our source
our transmigratory cycle
that we are born into
disbelief
in our origins
does nothing
makes a spectacle
of the love
we find
in our wandering

don't wait
to watch
and watch
to wait
a sobering thought
the love we found
shows us our heart
leads us forward
a place in time
beyond destruction
powering the memories
of the past
upon our shoulders
rests our righteousness
and the issue
is our device
and its image
vice

how we made it through
with the weakness we took
the shortcut
it wasn't right
and the love we found
has become a memory
while to some
still in it
it intoxicates
changes

our hearts were made for each other
and to those
who seek not the image
of the divine
seek after the actual
the price we paid
becomes a memory
an issue
of the past

how we made it through
the times
mankind surrounding us

Great Spirit of Mankind

Deny yourself
And you'll want again
Burn slow
Steady mind
The great spirit
Of mankind
The passage of the soul
Through the times of man
A humble spirit
Not that of design
Of surrender of the mind
To the spirit that is
The spirit that conquers all
Restrain yourself
No denial
A mortal sin against your mortal soul
The denial will leave you wanting
While the strength to restrain
Is akin to a blessing
Bear with the aggression for some time
Pleasant soul
No recourse
But that of the divine
Like a dog on a leash
Knowing not what it's owner pulls for
The protection of the above
The restraint practiced by the mind
Noticed by those inside
There's a thin line between
The mysteries you were meant to know
In time
And the occult
Which will be the death
Of your design
So kind soul
Be humble besides your maker
Beside the exposition of your flaws
Your humility
No recourse against the divine
The divine image of mankind
Resubmit
It will clear your mind
He who takes a life
Takes his own
Listen to the great spirit of the times

Praises

A vain enjoyment
Takes me to bed again
I'm sorry
The world goes on

Oh how we praise
The sinless
With our hearts
As our minds
Dwell on ourselves
And our hands light
The world
With compassion

I can feel it coming around
Passing by
My vanity
The things I've clung to
Have become weights
And how they weigh me down

I begin to grasp
Again onto myself
Becoming as a weight
To my own soul
What a burden

I can't help but look for something
To spice this up
Cause the familiar flavor
Excites me not

A selfless sword
The word of god
The only thing
Worth clinging to
In this ocean of the seeds of man
The seeds of doubt
Growing plants of disbelief

Somehow I turned it around
Just don't ask me how
The secret is in the transmission
Faith's conquest over green shrubs
Of disbelief
Grown with the water of the discontent
Forever green
With envy

Was I put here to just consume
I ask
As I smoke a cigarette
Iv'e seen too much
To not ask why
Still amazed with the outcome
But it's for me to experience
Not to be separated from
May my heart sing the praises of heaven
And my soul revel in the absence of doubt
Cause with these eyes
I see a hangover
Taking thousands of years
Pulling us back and forth
Through time
Wondering
And wishing
For those times we held so close
Sad when we realize
They are never coming back
Happy when it comes around again
So be it as it may
I will remain
Until again I am called
In service of the divine
Hoping my praises were heard
That heaven may prevent me serving
Anything
Else

Of Our Own Device

Of our own device
I see death between
Sheltered palms
Sheltered from the storm of life
In the pleasant
Things they've found along the way

Dead of our own device
I can see
The ego
Dissassemble
In its place
Holy smoke
The fire coming from above
And all the heavens
Of the truth
Couldn't stop
The downfall
Of wasted time
It's nothing without you here
Without a soul to color the abyss
It exists not
And without the ego
Justifications
Of comfort
I feel the strength
In my chest
My heart

And now I'm falling down
We wonder when it's gonna come around
There's so much to hold an opinion about
But none of it will save your soul

One day we will see past
The passions of our own choices
You may remember why
From time to time
It's not the same
Filled with the weakness of our vice
Which is seen not
In the comfort so afraid
So afforded
By the ignorance
The darkness
These worldly things
Attract my vice

An enticement of sorts
Giving in to the spirit
Brings me relief
I can feel the love
In my chest
Makes me feel
More than just a wish

It was given to me
A way past this vice
The tragedy of lost time
A picture of our device
Is worth a million words
Well then I say
Look inside

And the great sky will open to you
Not the one above your head
The sky of the world of man
The sky I speak of
Has no clouds
No need of the silver lining
It's pure
Seen by those
Who aren't afraid
Of the world

It's all light
Duality only exists
Where there's a price
To be paid by our minds
The ups and downs

I thought I lost
My device
In the sparkle
Of the world
Back again
It never ends

I would embrace
The answer to this
And of course it comes
But I speak no more
Given into silence
In place of judgment

Throes of Passion

When ignorance like darkness overtakes us
We ignore those in the throes
Of passion
A love for something that turns you
Upside down
The throes of passion
A begging of the heart
For more
Besides the excellence that guides
Us to all that is good
The spirit of the holy god
Without him
The darkness overtakes us in our
Elegance
An elegance of the heart
Wanting more
No more to the throes of passion
For there will always be more
And then a withdrawal
When that which amazes you
No longer stops you in your tracks
Goodness then takes us
The only truth
Is that which exists
And in it's existence
We know ourselves
To be what we are
Oh heroic soul!
Guide me past this place
With the goodness of the above
Leading me less astray
Every day
The price has been paid
By our maker
The price of faith
Is the task of our suffering
To realize the fear and the love of god
Go hand in hand
The spirit gives all that is good
While the flesh beckons
Like the land of the dead
Those who were deaf to the light of life
And in the darkness
They were pushed farther away
From the children of the light
Those who God has taken
In the hands of God
We are taken
With the choice
To perish
Or to be reborn
In the majesty of our faith
The majesty which is the glory of God
Inside each of the faithful
A gift of spirit
Received to free you from the fear
Of the godless
Make no false gods
Oh heroic soul!
False gods we have made of this place
The worship of love forgets the task of faith
To fear nothing but God
And love everything through him
The sweet fragrance of salvation
Impeding the darkness
The trite which has fallen by the wayside
An ignorance lost
As the above suggests we lighten
Our load
And make no false gods
Saying this is the goodness
Here it is
It takes up your time
Without the perfection
Of your mind
Redemption
From the throes of passion
Passion will always let you down
Like the clouds raining
The particles of our mind
Upon the earth
So let go of the earthly passion
And your worship of these things mankind has designed
Nothing is good
But God
And nothing is sacred
But that which brings us closer
To the living truth
The living God